abandoned.

my blog has been abandoned. =X

tomorrow is moral so i decided to on the computer for a while before i head off to tuition. there are so many things i want to write here yet i cant due to the bloody trials. aduei! its eating the life out of me. but anyways, i did my best so far and yung wen says that i should be confident with myself and say :"i've gone through 5 subjects and i have 5As!" XD XD if i can say that and actually do that i will be so proud of myself! xD

i will definitely update my temporary abandoned blog next week with all the details. haha!

so long! time for tuition and more moral definisi! =S

crap.

owh alright. i can still on twitter and facebook on my hp but i'm trying to be more disciplined. i turned on the computer but believe it or not, i was on for the better. i surfed the net looking for essay topics just so i can be more prepared to face the language papers this week.

i realized that i fear chinese the most. Mr Lim told us that he would be more strict this time and for kwang hua, well, we will not be using JPS's paper for chinese. we have our own set and i believe it'll be darn hard. -.- so much for my A- =X

BM. i studied one whole day (didnt slack on my work unless eating, bathing counts) and i only managed to finish Form 4 sastera. aduh! ish! i read the whole story again, the theme, the persoalan, nilai etc and i feel that my head's gonna burst! will work on Form 5 sastera tomorrow at midnight. hopefully i can stay awake till then.

today was the first day of trials. well, civic is still a subject, right? xD but i didnt touch it at all =p who needs to touch civic? okla, unless you want an A+ i only ask for a mere A-. i wasnt even anxious when we were arranging the tables and even when i sat my 'death bed'. no tension, no stress, no nothing. i am so useless.

but on the other hand, i know that if i complain about SPM like this, how will i go through my college and university life? the courses will be much more difficult and of course a few times more challenging. so i will try not to complain anymore knowing life's gonna get hard and harsh.

one last thing. the black rims around my eyes? hah! if those can make me 'produce' 10 A papers, i dont mind being a panda at all. =D i have been forcing myself to stay up till 1am everyday just to make myself feel better. i feel ever so guilty that everyone is studying till midnight and i'm dating 'zhou gong' already. sinful lar! be optimistic, i'm taking this as training for next week and the week after! imagine, i will not be sleeping for more than 4 hours a day. sleepless nights -.-

oh well, finished with the essay topics, finished with a lil update to my blog. now i'm off and returning to the arms of chinese literature =)

*how come people from decades/centuries/millenniums ago are so poetic and so erm.. good at writing? they make us people study literature like crazy* 

i will try my best.

I will try my best.

that is my promise to myself.

midnight studying is my only way of forcing all those facts into my brain.

i know its not healthy etc but that's my way of studying

some entertainment when i am studying xp

but it says what's inside of me =)

a promise i definitely will keep.

*ignore my ugly writing*

this is one way to motivate me to study a bit more everyday.

i remind myself how i want to prove others wrong.

i know i am not someone successful but please dont look down on me.

thank you berry much.

i promise,

i will try my best.

this will be my last post before trials.

my last promise,

*this is so hard to keep!!!!*

i will not online until trials is over!!!!!

*i will try my VERY VERY BEST to keep to this promise! lol*

All The Best to ALL FORM 5s!! =)

Fight for it!

its just a few months left!

*easy to say, actions? no way!*

surprise!

xD

i cant believe what i got yesterday!!

i still cant believe it!

i got this!

so so so so so so so GLAD!

THANK YOU DADDY!!!

*lots and lots and lots of <3!!*

(and you still scolded me the other day when i said i wanted a camera xp)

thank you so much!

one of the best surprises x)

still sick.

arrrggghhh! i thought i've recovered on monday. mana tau on tuesday, the nose continues to run and the throat continues its demonstrasi. wth!

now i feel so sick especially after 6 hours of tuition from morning till noon non-stop with a strong AC blowing my way. even sleeping doesnt help to lessen my burden. ish!

gonna spend my last day of holiday in tuition and in bed. :( this confirms that i will not be going to school on friday and maybe not even monday. and eh-heh! i am trying to sweet talk my parents to let me off on tuesday (means i want to skip the 'scum-ish' civic's paper! =P) hope hope hope! waste one whole day in school just for that stupid paper. so not worth it!

what will it take to recover faster? D:

p/s. taylor's principal's awards! ngek ngek ngek! got shortlisted too x) but nothing to be proud of as eng seng and i agreed to the fact that everyone who submitted the form got it xD but anyway, yen yen, congratz! see you at the interview next week x)

sick in bed.

have been sick for the past few days. i realized that i can be such a big baby when i am sick. i sleep in all day, refuse to eat, and such till my parents are kind of fed up already =S (normal to get fed up with these kind of people)

stupid sore throat, a runny nose and curse the phlegm! my voice changed, of course. and my mind, empty. seriously, i wanted to study and i have no semangat at all to open the books and flip the darn pages. so i slept through the morning and woke up at 2pm. and still feel sleepy. (what a jerk!)

i should be grateful that i am feeling much better now. (with 4 types of medicine and antibiotics, its impossible to not feel better isnt it?) i should try to make it up for the time i spent sleeping the last few days.

trials is in another 9 days. keeping my fingers crossed! x)

i'm not gonna retreat without fighting for it! >:)

oh my ghost!

i received an email. i opened it, and now i have a HEART ATTACK!

I HAVE BEEN SHORTLISTED FOR SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE's A-LEVEL SCHOLARSHIP 2011!!!!!!

-.- i know its no big news and most of my friends who have gotten the same thing but its like, HEY! i am not someone studious or some sort. my grades were *vomits!* and wow! i got it! xD yea, its exciting that i got it, but the thing is, i dont think i want to go sunway? =X how i wish if that was an email from Taylors! xp

any how, i should be thankful that i have been at least shortlisted even with my wacky grades! x)

my days are numbered.

my days are numbered. 

(dont think on the other side) 

trials is in two weeks and everyone is mumbling about how they do not have enough time, how they cant finish their syllabus in time etc. (i am obviously one of those people too) 

but i've decided. instead of going on and on about how i dread studying. i've decided to take it as a toy. it seems that when we take it as something fun, we tend to take it in easier. (thought by someone younger. what a brilliant mind! xD)

and of course, i will not sacrifice too much of my leisure time. =D tomorrow, i will be going for the Bookfest in KL. =D cant wait to see how many books i can stock up until end of SPM. xD (i bet daddy needs a new bookshelf! =DD and a new pocket [$$] too! xp)

if you fail to plan, you plan to fail!

by Mr. Alfred! xp

Majlis Perpisahan #1

yesterday was Persatuan Bahasa Melayu punya Majlis Perpisahan.

this is a very unique society in the sense that we do not have any juniors.

(or more like i dont know who is the next president! xD)

so the MP is just so simple.

all the committees (all from 5S2! =D) together with the teachers in-charge (Cik Shamala was one of them 0.o!) went for a meal in Manhattan Fish Market at Aeon Bukit Tinggi.

(it was kind of an eat-all-you-can and the teacher pays! xD)

not a good shot.

from left, hui gee, me, huey khim, zhi yin, tao chor, andrew and swee thian

brian took this picture.

victor was on the other side. so they werent in it.

ying jing was absent =(

(the one eating is Puan Chiew)

(and she's blocking her daughter's view)

there was one particular photo i wanted to upload but tst told me not to.

any how, i promised so i wont la.

but those present, you guys know VERY WELL which photo i'm talking about. xD

you boys har.. really like to make teachers angry punya kan?

ish!

so darn kiam siap! -.-

ah khim and i shared a platter.

it was so huge!

we gave half to the boys and we still cant finish it!

in the mist of eating, shao qian called me.

i forgot it was his birthday so his call charges is free!

i passed my phone all around the table.

i passed it to ah khim.

ah khim passed to zyin,

zyin to ttc,

ttc to andrew,

andrew and tst did some horrifying rapping! -.-

passed to victor, brian and hui gee.

and lastly, cik S!

the funniest thing was,

Shao Qian asked Cik S WHO IS SHE?!

hahahahaha!

it was so funny!

x) i will never forget that scene xp

too bad i forgot to take out my camera for a picture =S

afterwards, we all went to watch Grown Ups.

it was a really really nice movie.

should watch.

must watch! xp

one of the nicest i think. x)

after the movie, we girls took a shot.

the guys were waiting outside?

and hui gee was a lil impatient already xD

went to popular to get books and presents.

we lepak-ed for an hour or two and headed to tuition.

i was practically yawning all the way throughout GT's class.

i couldnt even focus.

i was day dreaming already when she started on sastera.

i was so awfully tired and hungry. xD

but when i went home and started to munch, *hah!*

i am all energized =P

i feel like i've gained weight, increased in size and bla,

but my pants are getting bigger?!

(inside joke) you guys know la, *heh!* where did that big amount of food went.

i eat much more than girls my size but i am still 8kg underweight.

i wish one day when i count my BMI, i'll get an average reading =S

(zyin, dont comment on this! ish!)

i think that's about all for yesterday's mp =)

motivation.

Mr Low was talking on and on about how to achieve our goals and so on during thursday's add maths class. its hoes on about when we have a goal, we must write it down, eg. he said we should write the ideal income (it doesnt matter if its 200 thousand a month he said), our ideal house (his example was a house near the beach. siau ling, su yee and me :"tsunami come, sure die" xD), our ideal husband/wife (apa ini. nobody is gonna fit that ideal criteria punya okay. even if someone meets the criteria, will that couple walk through the church to be married? xD) and also our ideal car (he said aim big! dont aim for a kancil or we'll get a bicycle).

well, i am supposed to feel motivated, right? the fact is that i dont feel so. if i am, surely i wont be here now, wont i? -.- i cannot deny that i have been procrastinating again lately. i have been studying, but in the mist of studying, i will walk around, cari makan, watch a bit of tv, online etc. what a failure. =(

i've set my study timetable. i'm definitely aiming high. i hope for straight As of course. i know i can definitely score if i work hard. i want to score but my determination is not strong enough. my friends told me, think, remember you must live a better life, think about how badly you want to live your life better and start to work towards that goal. yes, i am thinking hard. yet my mind set is not right. =(

i vow to follow my timetable. i am disciplined enough to follow it but i am not studious enough to finish the syllabus in such a short period of time. (definitely true for me and of course those who havent started their revision)

i am trying hard and resisting myself from touching the computer. i should stay my distance since the addiction is too hard to overcome. maybe restricted to once a week? lol. that's good enough. hopefully. =]

Good Luck to every Form 5 student during this holiday! =)

hopefully i dont turn out like this during the exams xD

the clock is ticking.

time is out!

* slaps myself! *

wake up!

sharpened pencils.

i should sharpen my mind and get ready to 'absorb' the syllabus.

every student would be so glad if this is true.

but think about it,

no exams means that nobody will study.

no exams means nobody will know who is the best.

maybe i'd be in the last class if we dont have exams whereas very very lazy people might be in the first class. =X

so now,

i have to offline and learn to love my books.

even that bloody sejarah.

i must imprint it in my mind that :

I LOVE TO STUDY!

I LOVE ALL THE TEN SUBS!

I LOVE EXAMS!

and lastly, which is the truest of all the above,

I LOVE 10A+!!!!!

*off-ed!*

bday celebration?

okay, since i've told soh ling the truth, then i will not hesitate to voice out my opinion in this post =)

2nd September was Qiu Shuang's birthday =)

well, sl and sc was so hyper about it and they wanted to go out to celebrate it.

(frankly, i am broke at the moment)

the first thought that entered my mind was,

"can i skip?"

but of course i didnt voice it out because i didnt want to spoil the fun.

i went at last because i dont want to be the spoil brat and ruin their plans. =(

and luckily, it turned out a lil bit better than i thought.

(at least something)

back in class.

free period and time for some photo shooting?

sc's table on the left, mine on the right.

taken by sl's hp. =)

the 3 of them.

i wasnt in there because i dont feel like i belong.

and i wasnt the one who took this picture too.

soh ling and qiu shuang

i like this picture. =)

now this, i was talking and chatting over this side when they're taking the shot just now.

this, is where i really belong.

(i'm sorry)

(its hard to say, but even shao qian is a good listener xD)

yj says our arms look like 3 dead fish! -.-

*

went to jusco bukit raja.

at nandos.

sc and i <3

they wanted to watch Love in Disguise.

the reason, because LeeHom is in it. -.-

frankly, i am not the least bothered.

the show was still okay.

sc thought it was the best creation ever!

but i thought else wise.

it was not bad, humourous, lots of laughs.

my rating : 2.5/5

then another photo session.

we bought the same hp strap.

its obvious where we were, isnt it?

noticed the coupling t-shirts?

it was on purpose.

sc and i, the best husbandy and wifey couple! =P wore our centro shirt =D

sl and qs, the extraordinary couple wore their famine 30 shirt =D

our hp strap close-up

see the bling near the heart shape?

xD

my original hp strap

new strap. =)

my day ended with a 3 hour tuition.

back home, i was so good as a dead fish.

but at least i didnt break my promise xp

*

soh ling told me she feels that in all those photos,

i look like i was forced to smile.

and well, in some, yes, i feel so.

but in most, i wasnt. =)

so dont think too much yo! =)