Nice Song~

Superhuman -- Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat?
On my knees

[Verse 2 - Keri Hilson]
Well that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible, I see
Through the me, I used to be

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

[Verse 3 - Chris Brown]
Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
I can see tomorrow

[Verse 4 - Keri Hilson]
Well every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelieveable to see how love could set me free

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

[Bridge]
It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going gone away
My only weakness is you
My only reason is you
Every minute with you
I feel like I can do
Anything
Going going I'm gone away
In love

[Chorus]
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
Superhuman

goodbye 2008~ whassup 2009~!

in another 8.75hours,
2008 is gonna be history~
i've learnt alot in 2008..
i think i've changed [a bit? at least?]
i've learn to be more patient..
i've learn to be more.. erm.. rasional? [hahax =PP]
in this year, i've gone through PMR,
5days which seems like 5 years..
and got satisfying results.. [8As~ wuuhuu~ =)]
its like i live inside my own dream..
everything is fine, and going well..
better than i thought it would [and im happy about that]
i really enjoy this year..
now that its gonna end..
kinda feel like saying 'dont go!' [ xP ]
today is the last day of my junior high..
i'll be entering senior high next year..
with more things to learn,
and more things to discover..
to learn what reality is?

i hope 2009 will be better~
i hope i enjoy 2009 as much as 2008~
hope that everyday is a happy day ^^

goodbye 2008~
tata~ au revoir~ arrivederci~ sayonara~
whatssup 2009~!!
aloha~ bonjour~ bonjourno~ hello~!
everything will be just right? hope so ^__^

feels so weird..? =.=

i was like 'huh? you gotta be kidding me..' when i got to know about this matter..
c'mon, gimme a break~ chill girl!
you gotta come to your own senses!
logic? rational? sensible?
are they in your vocab?
do you even know what they mean?
fine fine fine, maybe im just going to far?

anyways, i know the problem,
i'll try to solve it..
i dont want it to be worse than it already is now..
anybody can lend me a hand?
i'll go find Miss Perfect to help me.. xD
[im not being sarcastic! she really is Miss Perfect! ^^]

smile~ =))

what a happy happy day~ ^^
lalala~ lululu~ haha =P
all those sleepless nights!
all not wasted! yippee~ ^^
we were over the moon~
our dream come true!
8As!! mamma mia~!!
now i hope our gang can go to 4S2 together!
xD kinda greedy but hope hope hope!
haha.. really happy..
CONGRATZ to all those who are satisfied with their results!
ALL THE BEST & GAMBATEA to everybody!

=))

not enough? or too much?

well, i dont know..
i've done all i can..
maybe its too much?
or maybe its too little?
i've gave it all i got to save it..
but now, its like worsening?
i really dont know..
why cant this be easier?
why cant this be not so confusing?
i seem stupid in this..
being played-a-fool every now and then..
oh c'mon!
give me a break..

bad girl gone worse~

i dont know why, i really dont..
why am i such a freak?
why do i behave in such a nasty way?
why is my attitude like shit?!
i want to change this stupid attitude a long time ago..
i really tried changing..
but lately, all came back..
my worse attitude is being so proud (STUPID STUPID!!)
why am i so proud?
why do i have to be so proud?
i have nothing to be proud of!
im not a genius, im not super-natural..
im just an average person!
what do i want to prove?
i really dont know why im proud..
maybe its because im just pure idiotic..
not only that, i have a ferocious temper..
bloody hell! this is worse..
im been trying to keep it cool,
but sometimes it just gets me,
i really dont know.. haiz~
and another ridiculous act is that i like to "dong4 shou4 dong4 jiao3"
but i always go to far..
im quite worried that my friends will mind,
but i just cant help myself? (plain silly)

here, i apologize to all my friends,
im sorry for being so rude and stupid..
please dont bear it in heart~!!
okay?

SORRY =(

My Holidays [Part 3]

another trill about this holiday is,
my PMR results are coming out this hols!!
at first, the rumour was the 29th,
so im all prepared by then,
to accept my fate! T^T
but now, its up in the newspaper,
saying that the results will be out
on the 24th! that's the day after tomorrow!!
what the heck!
im totally not prepared for it to be so soon.. xD
i really hope my grades are presentable!
i wanna got 4S2~
which means. . .
i need to ace every subject! T^T
im keeping my fingers crossed,
and hoping for the best!
wish me luck! xP

like an arrow that cant be removed~

just when i thought i've overcome what i've always feared, something else occurred.. making me lose my confidence again.. i've made a decision, i've chosen a path to forget all that's ever happen and move on.. but just as i was able to release my doubts, i was crushed again.. i dont understand! why why why??!! blaming it all on me.. this is not what i wanted, i never wanted it to go this way.. not now..

who understands what i mean? only those who encounter this case before.. i want to save my own humiliation, by not saying the wrong things to the wrong person.. i have limited words is because the words i want to use are not included.. they cant be included it is not meant for people who are hideous on the inside.. so, what do you expect me to say? to you, words may not mean anything, not even the slightest emotion; but to me, every word represents something like a promise..

anybody want to try to be in my shoes? it isnt easy, and if you are me, you'll surely understand why.. its aches to move on, it aches to let go, it aches no matter what i do.. nothing seems to go right.. not now, not ever.. everything is like a show, but now the curtains should be closing already.. go on, take a bow and leave..


TAKE A BOW -- Rihanna
Ohh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standing ovation
Oooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

An’ don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (but it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (ohh)

And don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (but it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Ohh, and the award for best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let’s hear your speech out

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (but it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it’s over now

Oh Mai Gawd~~

anybody wanna have a taste of what i did today? i bet not.. hahax.. today's training was so so.. errmm.. * thinking* (talking to self) how to describe.. hmm.. *lights a bulb* TORTURING.. i cant even walk much.. and i was lucky, i went home at 12pm with an aching body due to my chemistry tuition at 3pm.. i wonder how's my teammates condition now.. laying on their beds with fractures all over? maybe i guess xD i had to admit, it was kinda fun.. but as time passes, i wanted to say : "waliau eh! gimme a break! let me sit down or some what.." after a few hours in hell, i continued my day with chemistry tuition (i didnt really wanted to leave xD but forced to.. haizz) and, i almost knocked out during tuition.. why? too exhausted.. what we chinese say, 'diao yu', i was doing that the whole tuition.. aduei~ but when i came home, a few simple chores await my arrival.. 55555 T^T what a tiring day! i think my legs are sore enough someone could actually chop it off without me noticing.. i cant feel my legs.. like im paralysed.. oh mai gawd~~ i wanna jump in to bed and never have to get up!!! which is totally impossible! my parents have a saying of their own : late to bed, early to rise.. i will be up by 7am tomorrow no matter how late i sleep.. T^T xP so much for 'sweet dreams'~ xP

taking one step at a time~

choosing paths..
choosing friends..
choosing this choosing that..
why must there be choices?
why cant there only be one?
i hate making decisions..
making decisions will hurt others..
affect others..
sometimes i wish to cry out loud!
i want to shout my lungs out!
i want to say that im so so so stressed out!
i want to say i want to give up!
i cant take it anymore!
but who to tell?
who would listen?
my best-est best friend is busy this whole month..
i cant afford to burden her with my troubles..
she does not deserve it..
who else would lend me an ear?
to listen to what i've got to say?
who's willing to lend me a shoulder to rest on?
can i quit? no, i do not have a choice..
i must go on..
taking only one step at a time. . . . .
planning what's next of me. . .
but what do i see?
i see nothing~ pitch-black~
like a black hole, taking me into it. . . . .

stressed out~ save me~

im really stress lately..
being bothered by so many things..
sometimes i really dont know what i can do..
and what not to do..
im not as strong as anybody thinks..
im weak, i always make mistakes..
i hate my temper..
i cant get hold of myself..
and lastly, im hated by almost everyone..
what am i to do?
i feel hopeless and also useless..
i dont want to give up,
but sometimes i really feel that giving up will make me feel better..
why am i so stressed up?
i dont know the answer myself..
really speechless~
how i hope i can find someone to talk to..
someone who will understand how i feel..
but i dont think there is that somebody..

. . . . .

life's a long run [holidays part 2]

holidays? what's that?
we are suppose to have fun during the hols, rite?
we are suppose to sit back, relax and enjoy all that we can, rite?
im enjoying my hols because they are not really boring,
but its filled with tuition classes, school activity and so on..
there are also a few things i havent been able to do,
for example, i havent start my work! oh my gawd!
i was supposed to start mid-November,
can someone remind me what day is it today?
im not even home for more than 24 hours straight..
please note, IM NOT COMPLAINING!
im just making a point that im happy that my hols isnt wasted..
i gotta admit i quite like being busy and not just sitting around..
but its quite stressful to keep it up like this..
mind you, i dont even remember when is the last time,
i slept for more than 8 hours..
probably first two weeks of the hols..
just the tuition homework is enough to cut 2 hours everyday of the week..
at least my holidays have been used to the fullest.. xD

p.s PMR results are only 3weeks away!! T^T
fingers definitely crossed!! hoping for the best!

My Trip to Terengganu

29th ~ 1st December 2008
wakaka! xD
straight after i came home from CC,
i continued packing my clothes,
and started my next trip the next morning..
a trip to terengganu!
[btw, i passed by D.E.R on the way there, kinda happy?]
this is the first time my parents,
are willing to pay so much for accommodation..
so, we stayed in Awana Kijal~ so nice!
everything in this resort is almost perfecto!
huge pool! clean, sandy beaches!
giant chess set?! cool golf course!
and nice, nice, super nice courts for sports!
and i mean all kinds of sports,
e.g basketball, netball, volleyball, ping pong etc.
and the rooms!! i dont wanna go home! T^T
hahax.. exaggerating here! of course i wanna go home!
this trip is more for relaxation~
so i just eat, eat, play, play, sleep sleep!
yea, yea! this is life! xD
by sunday, we're on the move again..
going up north to kuala terengganu..
this resort is called The Aryani~
it has 20 villas [one if it is 100++ old =_=]
this resort is kinda terrifying cuz i saw a SNAKE outside my villa!!
oh my gawd!! and the authority said it was NORMAL!!
how can this be normal??!!
to calm us down, he said that they are not poisonous!!
like THAT will help?? aduei!!
so, my family and i were to frightened to go anywhere near the door
[as it has a big crack on it], let alone sleep!
and it rained the whole time we were in Aryani..
so didnt enjoy it that much! haiz
on monday morning, we set off back home at 9am..
and reached at 7pm..
long journey == butt ache!
and that's my trip about relaxation!
hahax

Combined Camp 2008

-- 8th Combined Camp --

-- 25th ~ 28th November 2008 --

-- Dusun Eco Resort [D.E.R] --

wuuhuu~~!!

so, the camp that i've waited for such a long time has come to an end.. all that i can do now is, with all my heart, hope that i can participate in this meaningful program once again next year, which will be my last! in this camp, i really learnt a lot nd made a lot of friends too~! thanks to group 5 ~~ Hi5!! although we didnt win this camp, but in my heart, we are the champions from day 1.. we really did enjoy this camp very much! but its really sad to know that we will never be in the same group again! [the chances of me reuniting with Sugarcanes is even smaller! T^T]

My TeamMates!

-- low kah loong -- tan wan lin -- teh jia yap -- khoo jing jie -- h'ng joo swee -- tan zhi qin -- yap eugene -- heng yi xuan -- lim liang choon -- tan siok yee -- eric lim -- tan zhi han --

WE WILL MEET AGAIN! ^^

Combined Camp really did a good part in my hols.. it was terrific! i've joined 2 CCs so far and both was enjoyable (although i dreaded that it rain throughout the camp 08)! many activities have been cancelled so we have quite some time left out with nothing to do.. I've gotta admit that i miss CC 07 more (sorry T^T).. but i did not regret for participating in it this year! last year, i did not even try to communicate with my team, this year, i put my whole heart for them.. at least i started enjoying this camp from day 1.. hahax ^^ so, i've made friends with them and also enjoyed camp! [Hi5, if i've done anything wrong in camp, please forgive me~ im sorry!] well, at least we get to sleep more this year.. last year was exhausting! Again, i would like to say THANK YOU to Hi5!! Thanks for making this camp so worth remembering! im gonna miss the times we spent together in camp! keep in touch, my pals!! ^^

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attached with this is my blog about Combined Camp '07

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[[November 27]]
Combined Camp '07
I just came back from combined camp 2007..
so tired o.. But it was fun..
I dont know why I hated it on the first day..
maybe it is because I am still not used to it..
I do not know.. I really wanted to come back home..
me and a friend of mine, we said this together :
" let's kill ourselves tonight, beh tahan liao..!!"
we really cant take it anymore..
but as the days passed, we started to know more friends..
and by the third day, I started to enjoy the whole camp..
It was fun and exciting.. But really very tired..
I think we slept for 10 hours only during the 4days.. o.O
I definitely learned alot from this camp..
I did not regret joining it..
and I also get the chance to meet friends whom I never seen in school..
it was a tiring but great experience..
thanks to the AJKs, I really had a great time..