just right. =)

letting go of that tight, suffocating grip, made me realize that i can laugh my heart out. =D
releasing myself of that nasty knot,made me realize that i've learnt a lot. =)
when i got rid of that lock to myself, i found out i've missed so many things. =(

i should be thankful,
i've learnt so much. =)

i should be grateful,
i found myself. =D

i should look around,
i have a circle of friends out there. =)

i should have known,
everything was just where they're suppose to be. =D

i wont miss out on anything anymore.
i am just right. [not saying that i am perfect, just describing.]
i will be just right.
no hard feelings. =)

coward much?

saw a very silly incident today. hmm.. or more like a very ridiculous thing to do. something only cowards will do.

was walking up to my class in the morning. was talking to a friend. then saw person A [A-who-must-not-be-named. == ] and then stupid part, when person A saw me, person A fled. FLED! lol. is there a need to fled? hello?! coward much? who sees a friend and fleds? sampat. ridiculous. its not like person A did something wrong or committed murder or backstabbed me or anything. i laughed at the thought that somebody would see me and run. never thought that me, TZH would have a day when people would show me their backs when they saw me. i will remember this incident. this silly, pathetic incident.

does it really matter whether i am a friend or a foe? must you run when you see me? really, you are more in-mature than i thought you were. how long do you want to run, how long do you want to hide? it's not like i'll disappear one day. think about it laa. dont you think you are torturing yourself when you hide? dont you think you will make things harder and looks more stupid and awkward? eh, i dont even mind, why do you? sampat.

last day.

last day of the hols.

and i am still in front of the computer. just came back from swimming about an hour ago. school reopens tomorrow. bag not packed, homework not done, brain not prepared. i will be spending my afternoon sleeping because i'm tired from swimming for so long just now. [tommorrow in school you'll see how tan i've become. even a chocolate brownie is fairer. ]

haih. hoping for the best. tried my best to make this hols work but still it is a total failure. maybe when the school announces the actual date of the exam then i will be anxious, 'excited' and may more sleepless night reach me. maybe i'll turn some pages later tonight. hopefully i did turn some pages of course.

public duty-ing.

so i spent my saturday out on a duty at stadium shah alam. it was a buddhist function. [dang! should have said no. went anyways. ] i went on this function with nh. kz, irresponsible you, be punctual laa! ffk. ok, too bored, took some pictures and here it is. =DD

so called first aid room. no chairs for us pun. the bench is for the doctor who has been attending to the cases.

me and nh's corner. so kesian.

nh ar, dont pretend to be studying la. cant go in for sure. xD

hey, stop studying lea.

you havent been turning the page for a long time.

see, i told you you'll stop studying eventually. haha. xD

so bored. ==

nh's signature smile. xDD

our studying and duty-ing "materials" xP

my bookmark is definitely nicer. xP

we stayed in that room the whole day. whereas another 2 members from another school stayed outside the whole day. they must have enjoyed standing up every half and hour for the ceremony. i stood for 1 hour and i've already started to grumble. hehe xD my dad joked and ask when i reached home whether i've attained enlightenment. i said no way. not qualified. why? cuz i'm not bald. ==

my friday.

today is friday. a typical friday. another 2 more days and that's it. the hols is over. exams are coming. more things to crack my head about.

what have i been doing today? hmm.. guess what, i went SHOPPING again. can i quit shopping? oh ya, correction, window shopping. Hello?! knock-knock! shopping is fun, but what's the fun of window shopping? [no offence.] dont have the $$ to buy anything and still window shop? seriously, i hate window shopping. because i can only stare at all those amazing stuff. why cant i be like my aunt? dang it! she can buy anything she likes! and when i say anything, i really meant ANYTHING. from watches to bags to shoes. no matter what's the price, as long as she likes it, she owns it. how good is that? too bad, i dont have the $$. she told me to give my opinion on a bag she adored in clarks. when i saw the bag, i was like "ewww!!" and said "no-sure-ie, not my style. xD " and i looked at the price, i almost dropped the bag in front of the sales girl. [luckily i didnt. i would need to get 10 times 11As in my school exams, get the good achievement award 10 times to pay back for that bag! kwang hua-rians, surely you could guess how much its worth. == ]

O K, back to the topic, i tried to open my books today and i still failed to do so. opened up my chemistry books again. lay them on my table. tried to study. ended up day dreaming and playing with my sis. she has the same problem. open the books and the mind starts swirling. the day dreaming type of swirl.

is there a master degree for wasting time? i think i can get that degree with a hand behind my back. =X i am going for public duty tomorrow, from early morning until 6pm in the evening. so there goes my saturday. as for sunday, i'm going out. swimming in the morning and dont know what family activity in the afternoon. by the time i come back, bye bye sunday, hello monday! haih =(

september is ending. october is coming. can i skip october? please? pretty please with a cherry on top? i'm in living hell going through october. no octobers, please? can i straight go to november? i want to skip the big test. i want to skip hell.

cooperating basis.

my sister and i have come to an agreement to coorperate and help each other in our studies. ==

a very silly thing to do, but too bad, we have no other choice. we have agreed that for each day, we can only turn on the computer for 1 hour max. after 1 hour, the other party will come and switch off the computer. well, may sound childish, but that's the only way to stop my darn addiction to the computer. i hate being addicted to the computer at this kind of critical times.

my hour is almost up. haih. desperate time calls for desperate measures. before my sister comes in to switch off the computer, i better get my ''work'' in the computer done.

my dearest computer, i'll see you again tomorrow. ==

tell me its CUTE!

cute? xD

this is my cousin bro.

turning 3y/o in the month of october.

yao2 yeng3 lea? hahaha. =)

obviously ss-ing ==

see the many many books there? arranged in such orderly manner? xP it is obvious that those books have not been touched for the past few weeks. lol.

tada!! the study table. see how messy? or more like how small?? and think about it, it has to fit a girl with the element of water and a girl with the element of fire. [ignore what fire what water, just a metaphor]

sis's side. my side is definitely not so empty. AND, my side does not have so many creams. lol. look at the area near the glue. ==

now presenting, my side of the table. see what i mean by not so empty? mine is really really messy. but after all the open books and notes are kept, it's still ok la. haha. acceptable. teehee! =D

one subject and so many stuff. this sheet of paper has been on the table for 3 days already and the page is still un-flipped. see how S L O W i am?

and obviously i havent started on this sheet. absolutely nothing. because... if i've studied this piece, it would look like that piece below. =DD

see the difference? one is superb-ly CLEAN and this is filled with colors. dont ask me how, i also dont know what am i doing. just simply high-light some sentences and i'm done. =D

presenting the girl who would rather endulge into narcissism than to study whole day. the girl who will not stay in her seat for more than 5 minutes. the girl who is neglecting her studies to online right now. now read the title again, and you will understand why this post is named obviously ss-ing. =)
suddenly realized that i can actually be so so so ridiculous. =P

edited.

added some details into the post titled "thankful" because i feel that i've left a few people out. i should have thanked them as well. =)

something forgotten.

i was clearing all the rubbish on my study table [well, clearing stuff is better than studying, a little. ] when i found this 'artwork' and wrapping paper.

hmm.. it has been a long long long time. i totally forgot about this picture. when i first saw it, i still wondered how did it got there. and who was the childish one who did it. when was it done?

then i remembered it was me. i was the childish one. i did it last year on the day of my cousin brother's birthday, 6th April. correction, i did not do this with my cousin brother. lol. i did it in sunway. it has another part. not with me. probably already in the somewhere among the rubbish at alam flora.

as for the wrapping paper, it was my x-mas present. first x-mas present 2 years ago. i dont know why the wrapper of the present is still tucked somewhere between my pass-year exam papers, but good thing i found it, cuz in the bin it goes. =)

2 pieces of papaer can remind me of so many lost details. what about a 20" xxxxx? cant be thrown, cant be destroyed. too obvious. too bad. ==

tagged again =)

1)大名: Tan Zhi Han
2)生日: 28 January.
3)谁传给你的: Shu Ping
4)生日想拿到什么礼物: Anything will do. =) [except plush toys cuz my mum says she'll throw the next plush into the bin. xD too many]
5)最近压力大的事: not able to finish my revision in time for the exam.
6)想做的事: be happy everyday. =)
7)有没有喜欢的人: the whole gang and ysc. =D
8)跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: my pals, my buddies. =)
9)如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: do what a friend should do. [copied from sp xP ]
10)最想和别人去那里: somewhere nice, somewhere happy.
11)圣诞节想做什么: party, go out, whatever, as long as i dont have to stay home. ==
12)想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: anybody who means anything to me. =)
13)最近在做什么: shopping, wasting time, online, loitering at home.
14)有几个兄弟姐妹: 2 including me.
15)最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: as long as its soothing, i'm fine with it. =)
16)喜欢什么颜色: blue, black, white and green.
17)上厕所会不会冲水: sure.
18)喜欢男还是女生: i'm straight. xD
19)最想大大声说什么: i run my life the way i want it! xD [under certain circumstances of course]
20)半夜敢不敢上厕所: depends whether i can get up from my bed. xD
21)你现在最恨谁: dont think i hate anybody. =)
22)现在喜欢做什么: go out and do the things i enjoy.
23)睡相好不好看: very, very, very ugly.
24)现在的时间: 3.17 p.m.
25)是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: why would i hate her?
26)体重多少: hey, some privacy laa.
27)今天天气: HOT.
28)如果忙完了你最想做什么: go out and have fun. =)
29)失眠后会怎样: emo a lil' but still will do the things i have to do.
30)你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: do i look like i will? ==
31)你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: sometimes. =X
32)你有没有吃过夜宵: always. especially after night tuitions.
33)近期开心的事: i have friends that do care. and i'm grateful to them =)
34)自由对你来说重要吗: very, very important.
35)你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: erm.. hard question. yj? xDD
36)你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: i am more stupid than clever. never considered myself as clever.
37)你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: love both equally although my dad is fierce-r.
38)你现在最想看到谁: all my friends. =)
39)你爱看戏吗: yes yes yes. =)
40)你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你吗?: i dont even hate people i hate, how to tell them?

+附加问题+

你打算几时结婚啊: never thought about it.
你喜欢你的生活吗: yes. i love my life. =D
相信塔罗牌吗: never tried. so i dont know.
睡觉前所做的事情: take off my specs. xD
你的偶像: erm.. dont know?
你喜欢的季节: Spring.
最想去的地方: somewhere nice.
最讨厌怎样的性格的人: sbhb, snobbish, ridiculous, idiotic.
你会抽烟吗: smoke and you are out of my friends list. no offence, but i hate smokers.
你会喝酒吗: tried drinking a little before.
你常哭吗: very, very, seldom.
你常笑吗: happy, of course i'll smile. sad, i'll try my best to smile. =)
想睡到几点: 10 hours will be enough. xDD
朋友和情人你会选谁: depends on the situation. =)
机会+命运你会选谁: depends on the situation as well.
你很自恋吗: still ok gua. haha.
你有穿耳洞吗: yes.
这问卷多不多: quite long.
喜欢吃冰吗: living in M'sia, yes.
现在幸福吗: yes.
最在乎谁: as long as you are my friend, then i'll care about you. =)
房间里最重要的东西是what : my bed.
没有朋友你会怎么做: end of the world.
如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: everybody around me if happy and stress-free. =)
这个问题废吗：apa la.
喜欢那个水果: green apples. =)
最怕人家问你什么: since primary until now, i'm still afraid of this question :"who do you have a crush on?" dang it, i always shut up. ==
喜欢下雪吗: yes. i like the feel of the snowflakes on my hand. icy but still warm. =)
喜欢下辈子要做什么: be who i am. =)
希望再被tag吗: i always enjoy tags. =)
你喜欢等人吗: if i have a choice, dont want laa. T^T

1 。被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
2 。请老实回答每一问题
3 。不能擅自涂改题目
4 。写完请点10 位小朋友，不可以不点
5 。完后请通知那10 位小朋友TAGGED~ =)

10 位小朋友 =P
1. zhiyin
2. yjing
3. tracy
4. yenyen
5. vivian
6. pjing
7. yokteng
8. wanlin
9. tenghan
10. jingjie

Day 3 & 4

did one thing the whole day for day 3 and day 4.

SHOPPING.

thought i could study but mum said since she's not working, might as well go shopping. supposed to be a happy thing? but i keep thinking about my books at home. lol. but when i reached home at night, i headed for the computer. then my dad kept 'suan siao' saying : 'her revision is the program in the computer. everyday computer computer computer.' but what to do? sorry dad, sorry mum, i love the computer too much. xP

4 days went pass ever so fast. i used $$ faster than the clock ticking. i burnt a large hole in my sweet daddy's pocket on sunday. thank you dad, for letting me burn that big big hole. hehe. i didnt expect you would agree. xP
TQ TQ =)

tagged by sp. =)

你们被点名了,记得copy paste去你們のblog哦~

1. yjing
2. shanci
3. zhiyin
4. esther teh
5. yenyen
6. vivian

01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]:: no.
02-[ 5号是男还是女? ]:: girl.
03-[ 3号的兴趣是? ]:: sampat-ing, ss-ing. =P
04-[ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]:: one brother.
05-[ 6号姓氏? ]:: Lee.
06-[ 2号人缘好吗? ]:: good. =)
07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]:: idk. sorry. xP
08-[ 承上5号呢? ]:: crush i suppose.
09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]:: sorry, im not really sure. xP
10-[ 3号和4号是朋友吗? ]:: yes.
11-[ 5号的生日是? ]:: 8th of May 1993.
12-[ 1号读哪呢? ]:: my class, behind me. xD
13-[ 你怎么认识3号的? ]:: school activities.
14-[ 你跟5号的生日差几个月? ]:: 4+ months.
15-[ 你和2号有出去玩过吗? ]:: not always, but when we did, i enjoyed it a lot. =)
16-[ 你喜欢和4号聊天吗? ]:: sure.
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]:: not bad. haha. =D
18-[ 你觉得6号人怎么样? ]:: sweet and nice.
19-[ 你觉得2号人怎么样? ]:: another siao po from the gang. xD
20-[ 你爱4号吗? ]:: as a friend, sure.


1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的:: Apple Ping. =)
2. 你们认识多久呢:: since form 1. =D
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗:: a nice friend. =)
4. 你与他(她)的关系是:: consider as good friends ba. xP
5. 你觉得他(她)的个性如何:: nice, sweet and straight-forward. a good friend. =)
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是:: sleeping? hehe. i'm just guessing. sorry, no offence. =X



問 : 當你在更衣室沖水 门忽然被打开了 你会
答 : scream like crazy and look everywhere for something to cover. ==
問 : 海中忽然大浪來襲后 你发现比基尼小姐上身泳裝被沖掉了 你会
答 : say :'' kesian dia.'' xD
問 : 去海边玩会使用咩交通工具
答 : walk with my feet. =)
問 : 你突然发现沒帶泳裝 泳衣你会買吗
答 : of course, abo why go to the beach?
問 : 回去时 发现有其他遊客手机沒拿 你会觉得是哪牌子的
答 : Nokia.
問 : 海边对你來说是
答 : a nice and warm place. an ideal place to relax and hang out.
問 : 看到镜子 会不由自主的向前吗
答 : depends. xP
問 : 经常用洗面乳吗
答 : yes.
問 : 说到自恋会想到谁
答 : yjing. xP [there goes your reputation, jing] xDD
問 : 有人说该減肥了 你会
答 : depends on who wants to go on diet, if its somebody from the gang :" you sure you can?" or "aiya, no matter how hard you work, you'll still be fat." xP but if they're not from the gang, "good luck, you'll be very slim in no time. " [totally different answers, right? of course laa, because those sentences come from the mouths of the people from the gang who wanted to go on diet. ==]
問 : 自恋 適合你吗
答 : dont think so? xP

Hols : Day 2.

tuition.
used up 3 hours.
just realized, today is day 100.
sampat-ing at home.
used up 3 hours.
but i am glad to tell the world
the whole afternoon, in 1U, shopping.
er-hem! correction, window shopping.
used up 6-7 hours.
that i dont mind anymore if its day 1 or day 100,
in front of the computer, online.
going to use approx. 2 hours.
i can live my own life, my own way.
the rest of the day, in my bed dreaming.
using 9-10 hours.
i will be happy with the way i am now. =)
so this was my 'meaningful' day. =)
you guys have my sincere blessings. =)
proud of it? never. =(

Hols : Day 1.

1st day of the hols and i'm already bored to death. i am so so so lazy to study. haih. somehow i want to believe that i can achieve good grades without studying. [which is impossible of course] must find a way to motivate myself to study. i must must must start studying or i wont be able to achieve my ambition!

i hope to further my studies in the USA. but my parents were thinking about aussie. well, aussie's better than nothing laa. xD but if i keep slacking on my studies like what im doing now, i might not even get to study in malaysia. ==

conclusion, must must must pick up my books and start digging into them!

good luck to everybody! =)

thankful.

i appreciate it a lot.

i value your giving.

i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

thank you. =)

3 other friends who've helped me.

A,

thank you for smiling and saying its ok.

thank you for encouraging me. =)

B,

thank you for not accompanying me until the end.

thanks for willing to hear me grumble.

thanks for your encouragement as well. =)

C,

thank you for agreeing with me.

thank you for your unexpected call asking how it went.

thank you for your words of advice. =)

i am grateful for the help from you guys.

really grateful. =)

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but never mind. im almost there. =)
im sure to finish loading once i try a few more times.
after all, ' time heals every wound ', right?
i believe i'll get it right eventually.
i wont be like this forever. =)
i will be back to square one.
and when that time comes,
i will never make the same mistakes again. =)


p.s. i am sorry and i want to say thank you. =)

random-ness.

to get rid of the exam stress for a while, i decided to upload some random pictures [i meant really random pictures xP] taken by my phone while im bored or just for the fun or it. =) i had a good laugh when i saw these few pictures. xD hope you guys can smile a little too. =)

*reminding myself to smile more often* =)

yes, take a break from my books. =DD

the bigger one is from yjing and the smaller one is from my sis. =)


YUMMY!! ice-cream! XD

see how tall it is? and it is all mine!! xP

anybody want to guess what is that? =X

the chef for the yuckie thing above.

the other chef. haha =DD

had a lot of fun 'cooking' =)

want to have a guess what is this? i bet none of you can guess. ^^

what the horror! xP as if her eyes arent big enough. =D

*the 'dish' cooked by me and yjing is actually fake blood*

*the 2 colored picture is actually the skin color of my arm compared to my thigh. == *

this is me. xP

this is me. obviously. ==

p.s i meant this is the way i am studying. not the way i look. i know some people are bound to say "you dont look like this, you look even more horrible than this cartoon!"

happy day. =)

happy day, today. i spent my morning with the gang. after school activity, we went to mamak to eat. then, when we walked back to school, it started drizzling. when we reach prefect room, nobody wanted to moved any further. so we made ourselves cosy just sitting on the floor outside the room. haha. played music from yj's phone. singing and ss-ing like crazy. wakaka! it has been a long time since we've all gathered and ss like this. xP really miss our ss-ing days. ==

yj suggested running in the heavy rain. and the sampat me followed her. we ran from prefect's room to the teachers' office and back. all wet. xD when the rain aint so heavy anymore, this time it was zy who suggested to run in the rain again. xD but not such a short distance anymore. we ran the whole block B. haha =D 5 siao pos running like mad in the rain. xDD although its a lil xiasui but still we enjoyed it a lot! the 'itc bin sui4' girl was the last! hey, sui4 de, looks is not everything! xDD hahaha. [no sense of offending anybody. just joking.]

we sang, we talked, we ss-ed for 3 hours. and sadly, i was the first to go home ='( haih.

i really had a lot of fun. i had a happy day. =)

p.s. gawd, i did something darn embarrassing today. =X my image went down the drain. xD

just realized.

i just realized.

something very important.

i found out,

regarding the person i loath so much in my posts a few months ago [with the title 'confession'], i found out that i dont dislike her anymore. =X not only that, i've found out she can be a quite a good friend. kinda unbelievable, i find that she is actually a good person. although she could be a nuisance at some times, but she is really nice. =)

i am sorry for saying something so rude about you last time. i am very sorry. =(

exams exams.

my teacher said that exams is just 3 weeks away. she was babbling on and on about what we have no more time to study, cant just enjoy the days. really lack of time. yada yada yada. she is scaring me. and now, i really believe i do not have time anymore. [frankly, i really am lack of time.] the 'dead-end' is on 5th of October. i'll be dead by then. >,<





can i even dream about getting this grade? nuh! dont think so. not even a single subject. yicks! i think i have a big probability of flunking each subject though. is that 'good' enough? it is not that i dont want to study, it is not because i am too busy to study, it is because i am lazy ._.




and so, i will end up like this during the exam. staring hard at the piece of paper, twisting my brain when it is a total blank. then, i will 'tembak'. when i tembak, the chances of getting it right is nil. isnt that a shame? so can someone slap me to let me know shame is 5-fingered? if i really pick up my books and study after that slap, i bet you, i'll thank you for life. xD no heart to study, yet dont want to get bad grades? impossible. haih.

angels & devils.

a tour from earth to heaven.

from heaven straight down to hell.

then the journey from climbing back up from hell.

next will be enjoying the life on earth.

straight after enjoying the few momentary happiness,

flung from earth to hell again.

just that this time, it is much more deeper in hell.

working back up to earth is a pretty long journey.

its a long way up.

but i am glad to say that i am working my way back up there! i must get my way up there. i must make it up. and when i am up there, i am ready to face my terrors. this time, i will face it with all i've got. i will not make myself as ridiculous as the last.

i am not weak. i live my life. =)

live. life. love. =D

hmmm..

hmmm.. *scratches my head* [just a description, definitely hygienic].

"6th sense? accurate?"

"oh-puh-lease. quit joking."

...

now i am wondering who's joking. my 6th sense is actually accurate?

ding! earth-to-me! maybe it is just a coincidence. its not that accurate, is it?

another thing is that i feel i am such a blur. i feel like i dont know myself sometimes. feel like i am a complete stranger to myself.

can i be better at this? oh well, i think i just entered the world of blur-ism and confusion-ism. [fyi, i am not talking about 孔子] who doesnt have a time when they are blur and confused? i bet most people do. but maybe just not as blur and confused as i am now. =X

tagged.

1. How old were you when you had your first relationship?
14

2. Are you taken/single?
Single.

3. Do you like anyone right now?
dont know.

4. Ever had your heartbroken?
yes? should be my fault anyways. =X

5. Miss anyone right now?
dont know.

6. Who was the last person you sent a text to?
Y.C.Yunn

7. Last person to text you?
Y.Y.Herng

8. Last person you saw?
my sis. bugging me.

9. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"that is so not funny laa."

10. Who is top in your top friends?
the sweetest girl sitting beside me [SC of course =D ], the awesome 4 sitting behind me [HG, YJ, HK, ZY], the pretty girl next class [another SC] and the cute girl from another class [NH]. they are my besties! =)

11. Who do you trust the most in your life?
most-most-most-most trusted : schin. [love ya!]

12. Who do you love most?
friends and family.

13. Ever been in love?
yes.

14. Who has hurt you the most?
i'll keep it a secret =')

15. Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
no?

16. Are you happy?
yes :: 80%
no :: 20%

17. How many good friends do you have?
my top friends and many many others =)

18. Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
hard to admit, but yes. not just some, but a lot.

19. Have you ever cheated on a partner?
i guess so. i dont know is that considered.

20. Have you ever cheated on?
i also dont know if that incident is considered.
[p.s i meant the incident last year]

21. Ever been told someone loved you?
yes.

22. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
yes. i will only say it if i mean it. dont mean it then why say it?

23. What is your idea of true love?
trust, believing, can share anything, understands each other well, both can tolerate, both can forgive.

24. Do you believe in love at first sight?
i think so.

25. Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
yes. get to know each other better.

Who's been tagged:
those who havent been tagged, you are now tagged by me =)

no daylight.

i tuned the volume up on my music player.
i laid on my bed staring at the ceiling.
this time, instead of the intention to sleep,
i let my thoughts wonder.

i got up,
i walked around my room,
picking up some stuff on the way.
i took out a box,
stuffed all of them inside.
i dont think they need to see daylight anymore.

after everything is inside,
i closed the lid.
taking a last good look.
i sworn i wont open that lid again,
because i dont think there is such a need to do so.

i took daylight away from those stuff,
as they brought the storm to me.
i took daylight away,
since they seem to be smiling when im down.
i took daylight away for they dont need it.

the box is closed,
'sealed'.
there is no need to open that box.
unless its time to chuck it in the bin.

trust.

trust, something very important.
i would love to trust. but i darent.
thought it might get the life out of me.
not trusting is a burden.
trusting is believing.
believing is faith.
i do not believe,
i do not trust,
i do not have faith.

conclusion:
stupid.

lesson learnt:
always trust your love ones, dont regret trusting them because if you mean a lot to them, they wont decide to hurt you =)

back to school.

went back to school yesterday. felt much happier =) glad to see all my friedns again. unexpectedly, i am glad to see all my teachers too! xD although i dont miss their lessons. xP

my summary for this holiday:
-- holiday plan failed [obviously]
-- wasted a lot of time [in front of all the addicting games. silly me. >< ]
-- made myself a total wreck [emotional problems? guess so. ]
-- stressed myself out [for what i also dont know. feel stupid. == ]
-- found out i am truly very very very lazy. [true. so true.]

guess i really need more hard work than i thought.
planned my hols so well, but i ended up wasting it. =(
need to rush up all the never-ending homework.

TZH! gotta wake up!
rest time is over!
get up and work for it!
term end test is just around the corner.
must improve all my subs unless i want to get back the same stupid results!
must not get another paper with the lowest mark in my class!
pia pia pia! xDD
[hopefully that is =P ]