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i feel that i am getting closer and closer to my bestie! =D *loves her* x) dont give up on yourself and live your dreams! =)

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i realized that i never really gave up on my caligraphy. i plan to go back to caligraphy class after SPM. daddy's gonna get the shock of his life as its a bit expensive for my level. if i go higher, it might reach 3xx already =S but i dont want to let 9 years of practice and learning go to a waste. plus, i'll take it as a form of relaxation. xD

p/s. after SPM, i want to.... might as well not say it out here or else it wont come true! xD

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i figure i am gonna try to apply for every scholarship i can get my hands on. because with my results, i am seriously not really eligible for most of them. but i gotta try. belum try, belum tau! =DD i still have hopes! =) but not high of course. i was never a top student. never was, never will.

p/s. i regretted not studying during F4 midterm! if i didnt get any scholarship, it'll be because of my F4 midterm, darn lousy!!! i regretted so much!

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rebellious much? i am trying to get out of the house. xD i just cant stand staying at home lately. i want to be out and on the run. =D but of course, i know my limits, i'll study a lil at the same time =) idk why, i've learnt to go shopping, learnt to use $$! (Not Good! ><) but i tend to bribe myself when i've did something i feel right xp

p/s. i guess daddy was right. if i had my license already, he will not be able to see his daughter at home. xD daddy, now i am so thankful you forbid me to go get my license or i would have neglected my studies. =]

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i have been behaving like an animal lately. rude, impolite, big shot, kns-ish and all. i really dont know why. everytime i've said something, i realized i've hurt a friend. but somehow, i cant make myself say sorry. =( what happened? ish! I MUST LEARN TO BE NICER! i dont want to be a notorious person. it is nauseatingly disgusting!

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i hate it so much when hopes turns to disappointments. but i shouldnt have 'hoped' in the first place. its a 'hope' that will never be reality. better leave the hope before it kills me in reality. =S

almost over =D

PPD is almost over! =D smiles! wide smiles! xD (but of course, the smile is just temporary!)

BM paper was a bore. normally i used every single minute to make sure i did my best. but this round, since my teacher dont even bother to mark, i dont even bother to finish it! once i reached those questions which requires me to think deep inside my mind to get the answers, i left it BLANK! (seriously, i've never did this to any exam. first time in my life! lol!) slept for the remaining one hour plus! =D

tuesday was english day -.- one whole day filled with english papers. Paper 1 wasnt as easy as i thought. i used a totally new method to write my essay. different style, different views. hope it'll bring me some results. ICAS English was 20 minutes after Paper 1. the paper was so.. so.. so.. H.A.R.D! i just got back my results for last year's ICAS English and i only got a CREDIT! typical C? well, expected. it was really quite tough =S by the time its Paper 2, my mind was so exhausted i couldnt think straight. -.- hope i didnt do too bad. xp

Maths. still have confidence in it. its the only subject i am confident to get an A+ in SPM. xD

Sejarah. wtheck! arrgggghhh!! everything i studied and memorized with all the willpower i summoned, didnt make it in the stupid paper! >< and my dear friends, (i feel that it was sarcastic, really) (but not sarcastic from everyone, just a few, so i might not be talking about you, dont think so much =p) with a sarcastic tone, asked me why i didnt study the tips! if i knew there was tips, i wouldnt have studied till early morning, wouldnt i? ISH!!!!!! ended up spending 0.5 hours studying the tips and i should be thankful i remembered almost everything i studied last minute. >< (Bad Attitude! should change! ><) but paper 1 was a doomer! conclusion : Dead!

left Add Maths. no hopes this time. because, its the whole syllabus! and i am just so weak! >< i just hope i can maintain a B. i be satisfied with a B =)

I have BIG Plans! I want to GO OUT! =DDD

MTV world stage, maybe? =DD

i want to watch!

i want to watch SALT! by angelina jolie! xD sounds like an action packed movie which will send me sitting at the tip of my chair! =DD i want to watch it so badly! 

hmm.. never really heard any adver about this show. nor have i seen the trailer. but its from the producers of National Treasure so it should be a movie worth watching too! =)

hope i get my chance in watching! =)

Siemens Run

went with my sister to bon odori on saturday. it was so packed it kinda ruined my mood to walk around. i get bumped into everywhere i go. plus, its not really fun without my friends. =S i never liked public transport! ish! by the time i reached home, it was already 12am. well, i think i'll give it another go next year but next time, i'll go with my friends! =)

woke up 3 hours later for Siemens Run. =DD probably my last marathon as Kelab Marathon punya AJK. well, its a memory, isnt it? =x although it wasnt very long a distance but as i ran along the route, i was feeling so so so so so cold! idk why. i'm supposed to be sweating, aint i? lol. plus, was it something i ate or what, my stomach was striking me like crazy. it really isnt my day to exercise? lol.

arm painting. the arm belongs to yours sincerely. =D

sze yeen's =)

yin yean's =) sorry i forgot to rotate before uploading =X

(sorry khai qi, forgot to take a picture of yours =S)

from left: sze yeen, khai qi, me and yin yean =)

all looking sweaty and tired =D

janice's and may fong's face! i like the butterfly! its very nice xD

may fong and i =)

at least i made it through the finish line with a medal xD my first impression of this medal was : wow! so unique! xD like a sunflower -.-

hopefully KH will be going for McDonald Run? xD if yes, i will definitely be there! =)

striving.

okay. tan zhi han. *slaps!* wake up! *slaps!*

my parents showed me a thesis written by their colleagues' son. (fyi, that guy is currently studying in Harvard, USA) i read his thesis and suddenly, i feel so inadequate and infinitely tiny! he was voted Best Debater in an inter-school debate championship; received a distinction in ICAS English awarded by Cambridge International at the age of 16; completed Grade 8 in piano with a distinction, plays the guitar; is a one Dan black-belt holder in taekwando; tennis player in secondary; and the freakiest thing of all was that he represented the country to go for an APEC Physics Convention a few years back and met physicist from around the world!!! see the GENIUS? and can you see the fool in me?

i was in awe when i continued reading. in his thesis, he inserted a report on calculus, done when he is in form 4. and as a form 5 student, i dont understand what the heck is he writing. this is definitely a jaw-dropping thesis. but the weirdest thing is that my parents say that they dont want me to be that good. they just want me to be successful in the future. now that's good news. =) thanks dad, thanks mum. i wont let you down. =)

the next PPD test is in 2 days. i will try my best! =]

quoted and re-quote.

random desires

i have a confession to make. i am not entirely a shopaholic, i dont really like shopping for clothes but there are things that make me interested. (my desires are only allowed during window shopping. can have a look through the glass window but i cant bring it home =X) i like shopping for bags, shoes and gadgets. what gadgets? as you can see below xp just that i never had the chance to get my hands on them due to their price =(  

i passion for music is fulfilled by my Nokia Express Music hp. what i really wanted was an iPod to get my music organised and easily updated. plus, iPod gives a note-to-note satisfying music. i want. =(

currently using my aunt's Lumix camera. i know, i know, having a camera is better than no camera. i know i gotta appreciate what i have (its borrowed, not given -.-). anyways, the Lumix camera is approx. 6-7 megapixels (was high-tech 6 years ago when it was first released and bought by my aunt). now, i think the market is only selling cameras with >8 megapix. and the colour is pretty dull. =( sorry.

i want a Canon Digital Ixus 130, black! the price is suffocating. (daddy almost never buys me something that pricy) ish. i want a camera so badly! =( its my last year in school and i only have a quite lousy camera to snap all those memorable pictures. (but of course, its a desire i cant have)

oh this. well, dont really need it currently. have a desktop at home and its better than nothing. i just hope i can have one when i go to college next time. =) after all, i'm gonna need one if i'm staying in the hostels. =) i dont mind second hand or new, as long as its functioning, its fine with me because i understand laptops can burn holes in my studies account. =s

nice pair of shoes isnt it? its ReeZig from Reebok. i wonder how running feels like in a pair of these. xp well, i dont need this either since i have 3 running shoes already. just that i find it pretty awesome and uniquely designed. =)

posted this just to get some fresh air before getting back to work AND also hoping that it'll motivate me to study asap. xD

diligent maybe?

i feel so guilty! (maybe not guilty enough) i feel so bad not studying and slacking in front of the computer. whereas my sister, is studying frantically at her table! it used to be the opposite but now.. oh gosh, i am very sinful, aint i?

i havent be revising much lately. have been doing AM and Maths revision but loathed sejarah revision. my love for physics was discovered and now, i no longer hate it. =D AM too! xD shao qian is right, to think about it, out of 10 subjects, the easiest to get A+ would be maths and AM since its all about formulas and application. if you know it, you know it. no matter how the question beats around the bush, you'll still get it. so i am aiming for an A! i mean, A- first. xD

sejarah sejarah. when will you look more attractive and make me feel addictive? seriously, you are the ugliest book i've seen so far so you'd better start dressing up or i'll fail you!

i need to be as diligent as my sister! she is one word -- wow! frankly speaking, i envy my sister SO much! she is capable of handling so many household stuff! while i am, *so no-face* basically more to books and outdoors. my parents/relatives would brag about how good she is in the house and make me feel so inadequate compared to her. pretty memperxiasuikan.

anyways, off to work on my essay. wish me luck? =x

heartbreak.

"Taniah!" i thought it was referring to "Taniah! Anda X Terpilih!" and when i finished the message, i believe the whole house knew i KNS -- Kena NS. wts!

think positively,
1. Pn. Ngew is right, not everyone have the chance to go. i should consider myself lucky having the chance.

2. Everyone said it was fun. so i might really enjoy it.

3. its not everyday in your life you get to try and get in the military. xD

4. i kena lottery instead of my friends who wanted to kena so badly! so i should appreciate the chance? lol

5. i love joining camps. just take it as a very very long camp?

negatively,
1. my dear driving license, gone.

2. my precious time to hang out before i start school again, gone.

3. i'll be celebrating my birthday there if i'm going for the first batch. wthorror!

4. i dont think i can think of any more disadvantages. -.-

what am i suppose to do? ish-betul! ><

eclipse.

wanted to watch eclipse. my parents werent even bothered by our (my sis and i) plea. so when shao qian asked if i wanted to go, hah! agreed. =D

supposed to be a bunch of S2-rians plus my sister but ended up only the 3 of us, sq, my sis and i. w had our fun =)

i kinda regretted watching the movie. no offence to twilight fans. i almost, almost, slept in the theater. and ermm.. too much kissing. sq counted, 15 times in total. lol! really exaggerating.

the only thing i like about the story is edward cullen! xp (sorry, i do not like robert pattinson but i love edward cullen! xD) from what i imagined when i was reading the twilight saga, edward is indeed, prefect! xD i believe every girl will agree (from the actual book, not the movie, movie rating -- 2/5 stars max!) practically everything a girl would ever want, isnt it? xp

well, watching eclipse reminded me about... something. but i dont want to talk about it. :s

bet he doesnt remember it anyway.