life's a drift.

hmm.. i have been slacking these few days. procrastinating and not finishing my homework. well, i hope to do better the coming week. trails is near and i am so not working hard and waiting to fail. ish! sometimes i am really angry at myself but i just cant get myself to study any more than a few minutes. =( instead i am frequently online and stuff. how i wish i can study as long as the time i use on the computer. wouldnt that be just great?

just a few photos to show on how my life's going xp

this is my current wallpaper (on my hp)

tried to remind myself so many times.

but its obviously useless. =(

and i am glad, i am not the only one who did this! xp

but instead of studying, i am procrastinating.

seriously, i dont even know what am i doing!

i dont even know why am i slacking and not studying at all. =(
(btw, that's my new specs! xp)

i like this picture. =D

sweets! =D very very nice sweets! =)

its from the same shop i got the 'thank you' sweets for jia wen.

plus, i took this picture with a 'normal' camera.

no DSLR, no effects xD

* * *

how i wish i am a kid again.

no stress, no expectations,

no hopes, no nothing.

just smiles all the way. =)

my baby cousin.

currently 3.5 months old.

wearing his tiger suit in accordance to his zodiac! xD

how i wish i'd be like him.

the youngest in the family tree.

everybody loves him so much! xp

(one reason is because he is a boy!)

(i hate this kind of 'zhong nan qing nv' punya family =S)

supposing i know life passes by only once. if i ruin my SPM, i'll practically ruin part of my future. to me, a higher education cert is definitely needed to get a better job and thus a better future. cant do well academically means work harder than anyone else in your job to achieve equality. 

another thing is that i've decided not to skip so many days of school anymore. not that i am afraid of receiving the warning letter but i know i will not study even if i am home. plus, i know i will miss those days sitting in class in my turquoise uniform. before i regret, i'd better attend school more often. x)

down memory lane.

last week, my dad's computer was invaded by two darn 'huge' viruses. one worm another one dont-know-what-name-but-i-know-its-suppose-to-be-very-'powerful'. -.- my dad told me that the whole hard disk had to be reformatted and we would lost EVERY file in the computer.

i felt the prick in the chest. the first thing that came into my mind was all my photos! my heart sank at the idea i'll never be able to get those memories back. i dont even have a hard copy of any photo in the computer. i almost melt into tears. =S i regretted not developing them the week before when my dad offered to take me there. now.. everything is gone =( every photo since primary until today.

i've started to find links and everything which will enable me to retrace all the photos. some friends told me i should have saved my pictures in my USB drive. but the problem is, I DONT HAVE SUCH A BIG USB DRIVE! D: that's why i shifted it all to desktop! i was quite upset when i got to know that i dont have pictures from my previous trip to Bali. was down for a few days too. =/

yesterday, my dad called me into his room. and on the computer screen, i saw the name of my folder!!!! =DDDDD my eyes went *blink blink blink!!* a bit like when you hit the jack pot! xD i was so overwhelmed and grateful that i didnt lose any photo. =) counted, a total 1000+ photos inside ALL UNDEVELOPED! i swear i'll get them developed the first chance i got! ><

my moral of the story, ALWAYS SAVE ANOTHER COPY// BACKUP OF EVERY FILE! never regret it when one day *CHOI!* the computer was intruded again *CHOI!* xp

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it feels good to get back all those wonderful memories. =) just browsing through them makes me feel good! =D i will always cherish//remember those moments =]

understood. =D

i understand now. thank you! =D

its not about reliving or demanding something in return.

its about living a simple live without feeling frustrated. =D

i understood why.

so now, i do not have anything to ask for. =D

thanks girl, for making me realize what's going on. =)

life is just that simple.

not every sacrifice gets a reward. =)

august is..?

august is what?
the month of love? xD

its outrages!
in two week i've heard more than 5 pairs. either coupling already, still in courting session or just confessed to their 'opponent'. xD xD
wonder what cupid did this month? lost all his arrows? =p

out of so many 'pairs', i am happy for 2 special 'pairs'. together, not together? (my lips are sealed =p) courting session was hard but those two boys never seem to give up. xD siamese twins? plaster? mercury? kar yao ar!!! those 2 girls are really specials to us (the gang) so you two boys better appreciate or you'll be facing the fist of the rest of us =D

x, the right time came for you. =)
y, you are just wasting time! xD but seriously, you have made the right decision by wasting the time =)

hey, y, you still remember a year ago, august 17? i bet you dont, dont you? well, i do. xp some things are just so hard to forget. =)

another 1x days. that day is harder to forget. i remember the puffiness of my face. but i should shut it. its the past.

drawing is the way i express myself besides writing.

i love to draw. =)

AGM '10 call the shots!

i woke up darn early. and before i put it on. i might as well take a picture of it.

this will be the last time i am wearing this uniform.

the last time i'll be checking uniform =)

the last time settling problems of our division.

the first and the last time i'll be writing my speech at the last minute! xp =D

giving my secretary report.

yes i know.

darn fast, darn LONG. xD

eh, long time since i last gave a speech kay? xD

left our seats.

the committee list has been disbanded. =)

see our happy faces? xp

Jun Yuan -- the new secretary.

good luck and all the best!

do it well! =)

souvenirs for the Form 5s. =)

i really liked the souvenir.

simple (seems simple) and yet meaningful x)

(snapshots of the booklet)

seriously LOVE it x)

thanks sis! i was just suggesting you to do this and you actually did it xp

thanks! =)

the new chairman!

all the best! =)

during refreshments. =)

the food this time was yummy-licious! =D good job! xD

mad time photo shooting. ngek ngek ngek!

memories are to be kept =]

my dearest assistant and me =)

All the best jia wen! =)

jia wen, this is for you =)

thank you! so much! =D

my regret was that i didnt get jun yuan and ng kai ying to take a photo with me and jia wen.

the four secretariats. =( but nevermind. its over. xD

ah khim and i with our secretary and storekeeper badge.

we didnt want to give it away xD

but of course we had it give it.

it was a tradition and generation thing xp

i've never taken any pictures with my sister before. (in full uniform i mean)

and this is it. xD

NOTE: I AM NOT SHORTER THAN HER!!!

its an angle problem, okay? xD

L/Cpl Lim Eng Seng!

the 2nd time he wore his L/Cpl ranking and also his last xD

yj! dont kill me please!

i wont fight with you for thuan song la! xD

L/Cpl Teoh Thuan Song!

2nd time in his L/Cpl ranking but definitely not his last =)

WE! are PRIVATES! and

WE! are PROUD of it! =DDD

90% of us are wearing our full uniform for the last time =)

(except who? pig huey la! xD)

i played around with teng han's DSLR.

how i wish i own one of these beauties =p

okay. if you are any officer, NCOs or any St John Member outside Division 14,

please dont scroll down. xD

we wont want to be punished. xD

Members from 5S2! OOOIIII!!!! =DDD

We Are The Form 4s and Form 5s! =DD

ss time! =)

Form 5s and the Form 1s. =D

formal picture without teachers. =)

ss picture without teachers! xD

Hearts This Picture! =]

formal picture with the teachers =)

ss picture with teachers! =)

and it was the end.

but NOT for us form 5s! =DD

we continued at CY's shop. xD

the big bunch of us! =)

this! was suppose to be under chong yong!

mana tau he left already. 

paid ourselves! =(

(then only did i know that i was quite good at accounting and solving problems involving $$$! xD --- according to Su Yee, Xin Ying and Soh Ling xp)

first time ss-ed in PUBLIC!

we took this in KP's toilet! -.-

we practivally blocked the whole road! =p

and we..

out of the blue,

decided to buy a tee for every Form 5! =DD

body glove!

(we promise we will not talk bad about you.. for now only =p --- by all of us Form 5s! =D)

p/s. its an inside joke and we will not tell anyone besides us Form 5s! =)

our yellow polo tee! =)

(forgot to rotate it! paisea)

this is practically the best AGM i had =)

i am glad to have left my burden behind.

but i will always remember all the good times and hardship. =)

Good-da-bye! =D

the day. =)

finally, the day i've been waiting for, the THROW my files AWAY! =DD but on the other hand, i do not want to leave at all. sounds stupid eh..?

(photos will be uploaded another day because i am using my aunt's laptop because the computer at home was seriously 'infected' by viruses (T^T there goes all my photos!) and the connection in Sierramas is VERY slow)

i am apologetic but i must say this. as a senior, when you return for events such as AGM, please, dress properly and also respect us, respect our division. please dont dress like cosplay (a lil exaggerating but quite true) and please, respect us! we are in uniform and you are not! the commander is someone with a L/Cpl ranking, respect him for pete's sake and dont treat us like we are newcomers. respect us and we will respect you in return.

every main committee is to give a report regarding their department for the year 2009/2010. i wrote mine early in the morning due to my 2 hours earlier arrival. -.- and i realized i have 1.5 pages to talk about. that'll sure bore the attendees out. xD and i reported like a bullet train, flying through the lines and words xp and yj smirked while hk (with my reference) looked at me very sarcastically whereas according to others, she looked at me 'admiringly' xD btw, hk's speech was ALL about BLACK BUTTONS and SILVER BUTTONS! =p you cannot imagine how hard it was for me to swallow the laughing gas in me. i nearly burst out laughing! xD

"dengan ini diumumkan bahawa ahli jawatankuasa 2009/2010 telah dibubarkan."

 this sentence really left an impact on me. we stood up from our seats. we walked away, we were no longer committee members of this division.

the new committee list was announced.
congratulations CHUN HAO! xD i told you not to help shao qian too much! see la! didnt listen to me, kena already lor! =P the newly appointed Public Duty In-Charge! =D (the other Form 4s feel SO GOOD for not being selected, so chun hao, you should feel proud! xD)

chi kin, i can see the SMILE on your face when you were announced as Training In-Charge =) jia you ba! (eh, dont emo! xD and i dont know whether she likes it or not. she didnt tell me =( you help me ask her? xp)

wen hui, i know you are so happy not selected for PDIC. haha! congratulations and good luck! =)

my 'next generation' -- Jun Yuan. =) i bet you have enough training already having helped me in writing so many reports and proposals! xD but any how, if you have any problems, you can consult me or jia wen, we'll be of help =) good luck and dont be like me! i am not a good secretary! ><

Jia Xin, supposing you are shocked with your post? well, dont be. =) do it right and help jia wen all you can. stand strong in both prefectorial board and st john =)

Jia Wen, CONGRATULATIONS! =DD
(for getting the post you wanted! xp)
you cannot imagine how happy i am for you xp you are the chairman you deserve to be. dont be too soft, dont be too strict, be stern, be yourself =) ALL THE BEST!! =) thank you for your short note =') my eyes were red with tears when i read it =') if it wasnt because of the slide show, i would have cried SO HARD! x) thank you for helping me all these times. =) you are the best assistant and also a good friend to me =) love you very much! x)

i am very sorry, ying jing. for behaving like a barbarian. i am very sorry for not being disciplined. i sincerely am. i know i overreacted. i'm sorry. ><

the slide show wasnt really as imagined. it was too high and too exciting until none of us had tears in our eyes! xD you guys should make it more saddening and we will definitely cry xD (jia xin, i know you wanted us to cry BADLY! =p) and hey, why put so many of my xiasui pictures in the show? ish! x( nawh, just joking, i'm thankful i am in it. xp

the food was definitely better than last year =D good job. (i know i am criticizing my own activity but hey, its true =)) sp LOVED the fruit salad and so did the rest of us =D we ate non-stop! normally we'd stop after half a plate. but i think we ate a FEW plates today. xD

we took pictures like mad! with this person, with that. here, there. like we've never seen a camera or like we dont know what's a photo. we smiled for the camera till our cheeks were sore. xp i'm gonna miss all these times =]

our group photo. dont know why only a few rows compared to the previous tenths of rows. =( sad-nye! but when its time to fall in to be dismissed, we had 108 members. woots! i figure this might be the first time we had more than 100 members attending out AGM (excluding those who went home early).

before committee meeting, i saw jia wen's stern look. xP buei pai wert. so fast show your power already xD you will do well. =)

after that, most form 5s went to eat together. =DD ss-ed at cy's bro's shop. the bill was supposed to be under cy mana tau we had to pay ourselves. cheh! xD

we bought YELLOW POLO TEES! now 95% of the Form 5s have the shirt and we will wear it for MP together! =DD (i hope MP will be before PLKN or i cant attend! ><) Form 5s! we must have more gatherings kay? =)

i'm gonna miss everyone.

i'm gonna miss everything.

too bad i lost every piece of photo in my computer due to the virus and the computer had to be reformatted. =(((((((( SAD BETUL! but no choice. haih! T^T all my precious memories! my 700+ pictures ALL GONE! i have not much to remember you guys anymore. it's gonna be hard finding photos which are a few years old. =( i hope i get to retrieve most of them =(

every piece of memory is like a jewel to me.

kept in my mind and locked in my heart. =)

friday.

another typical friday in school. i wanted to skip school so much in the morning due to the pain knocking on my "stomach's" door. =( but because of my high absent rate, i had to attend or i'll be receiving my first ever warning letter. D:

there was a talk on the environment in the morning. it was so 2012-ish. but it was true. the global warming, glaciers melting, flash floods, natural disasters, all caused by heartless humans who did not take care of mother earth. the music and the slides really worked their magic on the few of us sitting at the back at first. but when it reached the mid-part of the talk, the few of us at the back were erm.. talking our way off with our own topics. xD

pelantikan pengawas. jia wen told me she was really nervous in the morning because jia xin and her (during rehearsal) 'launched' the flag upside-down. (imagine Kwang Hua's logo bottom up on stage in front of 2500+ morning session students and teachers. it'll be so so embarrassing) i got my fingers crossed when they were doing their flag thing and thank gawd they got it right =) zy and me laughed about the home nursing method they used! xD hahaha!

did experiments during chemistry. i really love conducting chemistry experiments. feels nice and have those kind of 'cheng2 jiu4 gan3' xD am looking forward to the next 2 thermochemistry experiments next week =)

until later =)

notorious.

来不及 --  罗忆诗


习惯一个人看戏 习惯一个人旅行
习惯一个人静静想你
想你现在在哪里 想你会为谁担心
想你是否已忘记
忘记那段爱情 忘记那颗泪滴
忘记了所有不该忘的回忆
我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以复合
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择是不是来不及了

忘记那段爱情忘记那颗泪滴
忘记了所有不该忘的回忆
我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以复合
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑 着心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以复合
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择是不是来不及了
我还是来不及了


on an accidental click on repeat (without knowing), i've listened to this song for at least 5-6 times before realizing its the same song. and i've spent some time listening to every word in this song and i find it really amusing and also amazing. -.- although i've been listening to this song since it was first published but i never noticed the lyrics. and now its here, for viewing pleasure. =)


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define childish.
i am an example of childish.


people grow up.
i feel like i shrink more than i grow.


people become mature.
i am an amateur.


i am a notorious person and i know it. =X 

child fantasy.

vs.

i watched a television series, the name was dont-know-what-of an American teenager. and i have that sudden flash back or something and i remembered that that was the life i wanted to lead when i was a lil girl.

the irony thing is that i can only lead that kind of life if i plan to fail my studies. so its a pick-me-and-you-are-gone or a pick-me-and-you'll-be-darn-successful choice.

it will never be a win-win situation. its either you win or you lose till you drop.

i chose to be successful.

not many people can survive without good grades unless you are a mastermind in business or what-so-ever.

and one more thing i want to change about my life.

no more plans.

i will just go with the flow. okay, besides the college, university part, i have it planned out. the rest, (my driving license etc. ) will come to me when its time. i know it sounds disastrous but every time my planned failed or was sabotaged, i'd feel like jumping off a cliff. -.-

i will not live in my fantasy world anymore.

i will learn to stand on my own feet and live in reality =)

lil updates

ok, since a long post of pictures doesnt work for my blog currently, i'll go for a few pictures instead xp

the banner drawing competition.

had loads of fun with the team of our choice =D

(if i joined according to the team yj arranged for me, i'd rather be absent! ><)

my 'dream' team =D

all the four st john teams! =)

i was absent so i didnt know the results of the competition. lol. still dont know and no idea what happened to our banner. -.-

i hope its not our last activity together yo! ><

we must go out for more gatherings! =DD

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last friday was prefect's AGM. the F5s are now officially bekas-es. (sorry, i'll talk only about those i know =D) congratulations to Jia Wen (the new PK 1), Jia Xin (the new PK 2) and Wen Hui (the new SU). =DD esp. jia wen, i'm so proud of her! haha! =] 

but the first thing which came to my mind was....

we're gonna have to go through this cycle ALL OVER AGAIN! ish! 

i know i just congratulated them but seriously, i am so speechless. haih =(

they're gonna lead a very very hectic life. i hope they can cope with everything. esp jia wen, being active in so many other activities. i hope you'll be an all-rounder. of course, i know jia xin will be one too! =] jia you ba!

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last saturday was our last activity.

some of the F5s. =)

(absentees: eng seng, shao qian, shu ping, yen peng, zhi yin, chun han and around 5 more?)

F4 and F5 Girls =D

all Form 4 and Form 5 present =)

i got to know about my secretariat work and i feel like i want to bang on the wall and DIE.

i never knew it would be in such a mess.

i dont blame anyone.

i realize its my fault but the work is so ... "waliaueh!"

haih. luckily i had help =)

thanks you guys! =DD

and those Form 4s who listened to me grumble again and again.

sorry and thanks a lot x)

you guys, dont be like me.

i cant wait to throw all the files into the cursed bin! ><

to the new secretary.

good luck.

you've trained enough.

i believe you should be okay already.

but i am still a lil worried. -.-

* * *

AGM.

i believe i am gonna CRY SO HARD!

today i just merely tell sc about the last activity we had.

and just that, i can already feel the tears in my eyes.

gosh, i know there's gonna be a flash flood this saturday.

every year (except 2006 [masih kecil] and last year [no offence but i dont bother])

without fail, the few of us would cry -.-

ridiculous enough but its true.

we cried because we didnt want them to leave.

now its our turn to say goodbye.

i dont want to =S

oh well,

there is always a goodbye.

although i hate st john at times,

but i will never forget the good times we all had together.

you guys are the best!

=)