decisions ~

decisions decisions.
i have to make a decision.
it is a now-or-never case.
so what would it be?
follow my heart?
or go for it?
i would like to follow my first decision,
if i have to say.
but if it can really get be that bad,
and also be humiliated in life,
then i just go for it, for pete's sake.
honestly, i do not want to be humiliated.
nor do i want to look up and being looked down at.
sorry, not really able to say what's going on,
but for those of you who knows,
you'll understand what im talking about.
this decision is almost a life and death decision for me.
a decision which i dont like to make.