affection-less.

have been thinking quite a lot lately.
have been comparing all my recent activities with my time.
deciding whether it'll fit or not.

"no time" is just an excuse i suppose. supposing people "make time" to do their stuff. but me, i use the term "affection-less" towards things i dont like to do.

i think i've been too tired/too stressed lately until i am sick once again. (shit!) so many trainings involving physical participation. so many homework and the usual 12hour per week tuition is driving me up the wall.

in the end, i've decided to quit from MSSD Temasya Olahraga. goodbye to 800m, 1500m and 3000m. 3 events which will take up 3 days. i've also decided to go with the flow for MSSD Merentas Desa. i will not waste my energy to audition once more for some pathetic issues that occurred. if i am chosen, so i'll go. if not, then goodbye.

ketua pebarisan? i've thought about quitting this job as well. my reason, is because its hard to cooperate with people, who, enter pebarisan not for the sake of pebarisan but for the sake of skipping class and latihan.

cs? what other choice do i have? affection-less with a responsibility. i'll just do whatever i can. please do not treat me like i am full-heartily committed. i do not aim high, since i've entered, my only aim is to get 1 out of 9 trophies back just to not memperxiasuikan everyone in the team.