competition.

a few more days and there marks my last competition after so many months.

state competition.

i still remember being so happy winning the overall champion title in the previous area competition. representing KPS to go for state competition. unbelievable. first time having such an achievement.

but atlas, that thought didnt stay for long. trainings make me SICK! parents nagging along. studies all neglected. some attitude just make me SICK! i hate the pressure. i hate the stupid nagging. did show a lil achievement in the previous state competition. yeah, i thought it was the end. but...

it started all over again. trainings all over again. this year, knowing that they expect more make me feel quite frustrated. having half of team participating half-heartily has already announced the darn results for this year. its not gonna be good looking. haih.. please, dont let me be as pressured as i already am.

somebody said this:" if they have the 'ohm' to join us, they will attend regardless whether there are exams or not. they will join us no matter what." upon hearing this, seriously, i am not being violent or aggressive, but i really want to pull that person's collar and give'em a piece of my bloody mind. heck! what do you think? we are devoted members? tolong lar.. stupid fact. and the stupid-est thing was, i ACTUALLY neglected my exams and went for it! dang it! regretted ever so much!

this year. since i was out of my mind when i agreed, i might as well just go on with the plan. i can only promise to do my best. i will give it my best, but if my best is not enough, i can only say i am sorry. for now, NAA. good luck! we're SO gonna need all the luck we can get for this sunday!