i give up...

i give up. i give up. I GIVE UP!!

i am so fed up and have given up hope. this is really hell to me.

do you guys really think i want it to be that way? do you know how many things i have to change just to suit the ways you guys want? what have i become? i wasnt like this. i never talked so persuasively, i never tried pleading. but now? what have i done?

i really give up. no cooperation. discussions with no answers. just go, GO and do everything you guys wish. i'll bear all you fellas punya fault. just go.. its not like its the first time i get scolding because of you all anyway. what have i done wrong..? :'(

i... dont know what to say anymore. am just so speechless. i just dont know why, some of you wanted me to put my heart into it, but you guys were the one who made me feel like i'm whithering and eventually feel like hell. i've never felt so bad about this and i've never hated this so much.

i envy others, because they do not face the same problem. i envy those, who got support from their friends and families. unlike me.

how i wish i can be someone normal. no need to bear the pain. no need to be so stressed about this. and of course, no need to participate.

i'm tired. i'm crying. but who is there to listen? listen also dont understand, understand also dont care. care also dont bother. no one understands how bad i feel.

i really give up.. please tell me no more.