我知道 – By2

this song is very nice. haha =D
my classmates hum it everyday. lol. dont know why.


我知道 – By2
从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过娇纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过
从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过娇纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流

i pity myself.

i pity myself.
i am always caught in those kind of situations at the wrong time, wrong place and the wrong people.

i pity myself.
my life is starting to back up to the lane (which is a good thing =) ) but i am getting pretty exhausted from everything.

i pity myself.
why am i so good at getting rejected items? is that a trend nowadays? i dont think so.

i pity myself.
i am ridiculous to put myself into this condition. pity pity. * thisk thisk thisk *

Z H!
you got ourself into this situation, you can get yourself back out! must work hard to get everything back up on track and make sure it stays there!! >.<

chill it.

c'mon la. take a hint. chill it.
you can be better than that.
i have made that hint crystal clear.
dont pretend dont know.
eh, dont make me think that my choice is really really, absolutely right.
if you do that again, i will definitely shout out loud!
dont even think about it.
it is so so so annoying.
keep it to yourself for pete's sake.
==

a lil' update.

hey, i think i've changed my stupid lazy attitude! xD unbelieveably i have been doing my homework everyday since this monday. haha. i've finished almost every homework ( still working really hard on it ). dont laugh, i really dont do my homework. and now i am catching up. wakaka! xD i must be really very stupid to think that homework was inpossible to finish. i dont really think it is a problem. lol. must add a lot a lot of oil to make sure i have finished everything asap! before it piles up again >.<

i am going to be ever so busy this month. yikes! with so many activities going on, it'll be a miracle if i can do well in every activity, finish all my homework and still make it through alive. 1 major/important activity, 2 minor but still very important activities, monthly test is next week, plus there are 3 marathons coming up. [ i really am praying hard that i can keep up with my homework. ] and for this month, i think i wont be in class often. have to look for teachers, get approval, yada yada yada... means i'll be neglecting my homework again. haizz.

conclusion, i must really put in effort and spent my time more wisely. XD

money, a sensitive issue.

i've never seen somebody who knows how to 'kit' money as good as him.
[a very big round of applause for him!! * claps * ]
how can you think that we are brainless?
hey, we know how much $$ we have, ok?
you want to take RM 500+? dream on.
you are just being difficult.
very difficult.
hello, you are an adult,
not youngsters like us.
is there any other you can get your money?
its not like you are not working. ==
by helping us to buy things,
we loose most of our money already.
because half the price will be in your pocket.
haizz. we are going to have to find our income before we run out of money.
and that will be very very soon.

Ghost House.

I forgot to say, a timid me, became a ghost last saturday.
last saturday was my school's Hari Koperasi.
there was a ghost house created by all the uniform bodies.
st john worked together with kadet polis to create the last third of the pathway.
honestly speaking, i dont really think our third was scary.
sorry guys. haha. >.<
yj was dressed in her old pinafore and i sprayed blood all over her pinafore.
gawd she was really like a ghost.
nh has the scariest expression.
with large chunks of blood all over her face.
plus, her hair is super-duper long which covers her face.
many were terrified of her. haha. xD
i was supposed to be the one who will 'draw' the ghost,
but i got too bored because no ghost need more 'blood' on their faces.
so i drew two streaks of blood dripping from my mouth and ran to join in the fun.
my face isnt scary at all.
just ever so plain.
but it was fun, very fun.
i enjoyed it when girls came in. hehe.
because girls shouted like maniacs.
guys are so boring.
none of them are afraid. even if they ARE afraid, they dont show it.
and unbelievably, many said that i was scary. LOL
really didnt see that coming.
it was very exciting and fun at the beginning.
but after 2 hours, oh boy, i want to get out.
it started to get very very sienz.
most of the ghost were tired and hungry.
and yet more people entered the ghost house.
we dreaded the time.
at 2pm, the ghost house ended, and we all went to wash the scars off our face.
yj had difficulty washing the blood from her.
nh still has the blood stains on her face after washing 3 times. =DD
and i still have blood on my fingers today, which is 3 days after the ghost house.
it was a really fun experience. =D
maybe i'll try again next year? XD

Parents Day.

my daddy came to take my report card today. he said, 'wah.. why you get such BAD results?' and i saw a smile flashed on shalala's face. >.<> ba. sampat. she didnt teach us how to write essays or anything. we wrote essays for her to make and all she did was sign at the last page. how will we know our mistakes?? her marking scheme is so stubborn. synonyms of the word cannot be accepted. only the actual words. how can anyone get high marks with that?

and she said my add math would have gotten an A if i stayed in class more. ok, i admit, i wasnt in class lately. but that doesnt really makes a difference seeing that my add math teacher isnt very good. she said those who stayed in class got As. yada yada yada.. some got G9s la. i got pass. xD better than G9. no offence to anybody.

with shalala marking my paper, i wont be surprised if i got a G9 for BM in the year end exam. can i have another form teacher? pretty please??

stick to the game.

is this me?
or am i acting along?
can i really take this as something usual?
or am i just so good at acting?
feels weird? answer is no.
when i gave up, i saw hope.
when i thought hope was there, but then i was pushed back to reality.
sometimes, to forget is to heal.
when i forgot everything, then only i will be myself again.
i want to forget.
i want to get away.
i want to accept reality.
nothing is better if i dont let go.
conclusion => just stick to the game.
it'll be over very soon. (i hope)

my worst mistake!

this is the worst mistake i've ever made. i shouldnt have trusted you when you said you are capable. and look what you've done now? i think we will just have to cancel it if this is how it turns out. we do not have much time left and still, you are not serious.

how foolish of you to think we have all the time in the world.

how foolish of ME to believe you can do it.

you really are slow in everything you do. si comel konon. ya right. why didnt you change a bit since Form 1? my gawd! please be more responsible! if you think you cant handle it then dont tell me you can in the first place! sorry to say this, i know its cruel, but i do not regret 'bullying' you this whole morning. i regretted at first, but once i know you wasted the two weeks i gave you, i would like to say i hadnt bully enough!

WAKE UP, YOU PIG!!
WE DONT HAVE YEARS!!
THE CLOCK IS TICKING!!

back to square one

back to square one.
but funny, things changed.
is it me or is it always so dramatic.
maybe i am lost in my own world.
who knows? haha
my grades are so red.
but thank heaven i passed everything.
i've got only 1 miserable A1,
2 lucky A2s,
3 almost-going-to-get-A2 B3s,
2 happy C6s (because i thought i would get G9 in both subs),
and 1 miraculously E8 (i am darn happy i passed that =) )
two more papers to go.
hopefully i get Bs in both. haha