3 more days.

3 more days until the brats come back.
they're gonna be here for 2 whole months.
2 months i'm gonna say goodbye to the peace and quiet house.
2 months without any freedom to do my stuff with them barging around.
2 months i wont be able to tune the tv.
2 months i will have to DEVOTE my life to the 2 brats.
2 months of non-stop screaming and yelling.

2 whole months.

my sis even reminded me that if we were to do anything, must accomplish it in these 3 days or we will never have the chance to do it. and, she's pretty much right about it.

i am keeping my fingers crossed, very tightly crossed that they've changed that princess attitude of theirs before coming back. ><

forget, forgotten?

once a day i thought i would never forget.
not even until the end of time.
but hey, i've forgotten it already. =D
bwahaha! xD
it turns out so easy to be forgotten. lol.
i didnt even remember that day until i noticed that that day passed some days ago. =D

as a conclusion, nothing is impossible to forget.
as long as you dont think about it and dont bring it up, you'll forget in a jiffy. =D

life's good. =D
(i am not helping LG with a commercial here. xp)

i'm back! =D

i am back from bali. =)

bali was better than what i'd imagine. it was nice, very nice. way much better. not as malay-ish as i thought. [seriously, no offence!] the first few things i learnt about bali was, you dont need a license to drive on the road, you can talk on the phone while driving, all the shops seems small and congested, but hell, when you step inside, it is a hundred times larger that anything you would have thought. only one word to describe the beaches ==> WOW! clear waters, clean sand and its something which you dont see in malaysia at all.

i did not regret going on this trip. (although i thought so in the beginning. xD) and i swear i must go back there again one day. xp the pictures will be uploaded soon. xD

so long for now. =)

i am leaving for my trip in less than 10 hours.

i am quite looking forward to it. =) very delighted to finally have the chance to explore some place new. =D

will be back in 5 days. =D

and i think i'll wrote all about it the day i reach home. xD

till then. so long for now. =DD

a friend.

i have a friend whom i have not seen since May.
i have a friend whom i have not heard her since May.
i have a friend whom i could not see because we are a section apart.
i have a friend whom i would love to find right now.

i have a friend where we communicate only through msn and msgs.
i have a friend where we cant arrange time to go out.
i have a friend who i would like to call my sister. =)
i have...
i have...

ahh.. enough babbling. i am not a poet. =P
but still, i have a friend named esther teh sue hui,
and i consider her as my sister. =D

*yo esther, good enough for ya? XP *

boredom.

home alone is so darn boring. =X so i decided to upload a few random pictures. to my dear classmates whom i accidentaly ended up in the pics below, no offence yo. just random. =) no hard feelings. pure random-ness and boredom.

shouldnt have studied so late. xD

recharging after the whole 2 weeks. =D

guess what are the boys doing behind.

before PK paper.

my table.. until today. too lazy to clean it, xD

guess what's that? =D

playing truant! xp

absent from school.. again! i think i will be receiving the warning letter from school next week. xD always absent without a letter. haha. =D

decided that i didnt want to go to school because i have no transport home. one thing. second thing, there will be a free empty slots in the timetable today [predicted my yours sincerely]. and last thing, i wont want to transmit all those killer germs to my friends.

one word to describe my morning ==> sienzz! watched tv, open facebook, eat... i dont think there's anything else. aduei. might as well go finish off some sustended homework. lol.

decide. decided.

you decide how you go through your days.
you decide what you want to do.
you decide whether or not you want to achieve your goal.
you decide what you want to know.
you decide whether you are happy or not.
you decide what you really want in life.
you decide what you wish for.
you decide whether or not to go through things with a smile or a frown.
you decide whether some things are worth the sorrow.

and i say,

i decide.
i decide what i will do with my days.
i decide.
i decide that i will never go with a frown. [doing my best trying not to.]
i decide.
i've decided.
my days are mine to decide. =)

* just a note to myself. =) *

study random-ness.

the books needed to study add maths.

those papers are actually moral definitions.

my whole study room is full of them.

close-up. xD

my pens to help my memory. xD

conclusion, i am just too bored to study so much.

taking random pics is better. xD

the end! almost.

i'm lovin' it!!
the nightmare just past. this is something to cheer about. =)
finally, i can sleep peacefully. =DD

what left is

AM K1 (not like i'll get a B even if i endulge in it all day.),
BC K2 (i hope i manage to understand the confusing 'wen yan wen' by this weekend.),
BI K2 (i'll study monday morning. xD )
PSK (who needs to study that?)
PK (i'm trying to talk my parents to let me skip this test. stupid test.)
MM K1 (pn. ooi, i might be getting that reward! XD )

and that is the end!!!

a lil update on exam week.

chemistry was ok. a few silly mistakes. should be alrighty.

i burnt the oil for sejarah until 3 a.m. and it did paid off. i memorized Zaman Gelap so hard and bingo! out it comes in essay. my life-saver.

add math. a total nightmare! hopefully next week's paper one can save the B i was dreaming of. NO MORE Es!!!!

moral was still ok. not really that bad. =)

PHYSICS. oh the horror. to make my paper look nicer, with not so many blanks, i TEMBAK darn many questions. i believe my answers werent even logically accepted. but whatever. at least i didnt leave it blank. this proves that me, T Z H will never get better than a D in physics. not even for monthly tests. the chances of my AM getting a B is way higher than my physics getting a C. [I saw my teacher marking my paper during bio exam. and i saw it was all RED!!! >< ]

down to biology. it was ok i suppose. i studied this the longest. i studied till 3.30am. at least i still can answer. tembak half of it, of course. =D

BM K1, suan le ba. my karangan panjang was only 2.75 pages. how to get high marks? matilah saya. not like i can get A with that teacher of mine. xD

next week, faster come, faster go! =DD

my desire.

my desire.
my one and only desire.
i need it so much. ><

my need is

S L E E P ! ! ! ! !

stupid stupid stupid me!
yea, i am stupid enough not to have learnt my lessons from the past exams. always, ALWAYS study last minute-ly. ALWAYS burn the midnight oil.

my bedtime for the past few days were not earlier than 2 a.m. ealiest is 2.30 a.m. at least i managed to finsih everything. being optimistic? xD

i declare that my WORST subject, PHYSICS IS OVER!! =D it really cost me my live studying that cursed subject. [no offence to those who love physics. i hate it!]

gotta get some sleep now. for i NEED to study for bio at midnight.

felt nice. =)

i went to the gym today. =D really need to get some fresh air from the books.

the first thing i picked to go on was the track mill. once i got on it, i started to tune the speed faster and faster. i darent increase the speed anymore once it reached 8.0. it felt good. very very good. =) i ran and ran, i just couldnt stop. xD i feel so relaxed when im on the track. very comfortable. =D i ran for 40 minutes on the track until i started to slow down.

if not because the sun is too hot and my aunt cant bear the heat in the swimming pool, i wouldnt have agreed to go. i really enjoyed my day today. haha. i am going back there next week before i go crazy from studying too much. xD

exercising is my kind of relaxation. xDD so no wonder my '-holic' was exercisaholic when i did the facebook quiz a few months ago. xP

hair cut.

i decided that my fringe was too long and very very irritating. so i went for a cut. i went to xxxxx 'hair studio' in kp.

i told the lady i wanted to trim a little at the back and i want to cut the fringe. she said ok. she looks so pro but dont judge a book by its cover. all the way when she was 'fixing' my hair problem, she was yacking away. my gawd!! buei tahan! at first i thought she was quite good because she explained to me very detailed about what she's gonna do with my hair. after 15 minutes, i really felt like leaving. her mouth cant seem to stop moving! kept babbling and babbling on and on. asking me really ridiculous questions and repeating those questions. she asked me if i'm a student twice within 2 minutes.

after she finished, i looked in the mirror and i nearly fainted. what a bird-ish look. so long to my fringe. i look pathetic. =X but look on the bright side, the hair is no longer bothering my eyes. now i have a clearer view. xD

older, wiser?

been dreaming, been thinking.
and guess what i found out.
i found out either i am older mentally or i've turn a lil' wiser. xD
because i realized many things this week.
like everything is making sense right now.
[of course i dont mean making sense in the wrong way.]
i dont see things the childish way i used to see it.
i look at the overall first before judging.
and that's a good thing? hehehe xD
its nice to know i've cracked a head and realize something, better than sitting around doing nothing. =)

p.s. this is just my point of view. not everybody will think this way, but at least i feel that i am this way. =)

it's raining =)

it is raining outside.
i like it when it rains. =)
i like to smell the scent of the water,
smashing on the roof of my house.
i would like it even more,
if i can go outside. =)

i want to go into the rain.
i want to stand right there,
feeling the pouring rain on me.
it would feel so nice.
that cool and comfy feeling. =D

i missed the rain.
i missed the sound of the rain,
hitting my window at night.
it would be so nice,
if i could hear that sound tonight. =)

but of course,
my liking for the rain depends on my mood. =P
if it will ruin my plans, or
cause me unable to walk for my classes,
it better stand out of the way. xD

but most of the time,
i still like the sound of the pouring rain. =)

a waste.

my saturday was so so so wasted.

woke up at 6.10am to find out my sis was late for her public duty. [i still cant believe she agreed to go for public duty.] in a very kelam-kabut condition, we managed to get to hq by 6.45am. miracle i tell'ya.

went back home to sleep for an hour. woke up at 8.11am and now its my turn to change into my uniform to go hq. and i regretted going. so so so regret. i am not being offensive. this is just what i feel about it. the adult uniform have so many 'kelengkapan', i have to put it all on, that is not a problem. my hair is getting messier and messier every day and its getting harder to tie it neatly, not a problem too. i have to ask my dad to sacrifice his time to fetch me to hq which is approx 20mins from my house, a small prob here. the dang problem is i have to go through a lot of stuff and what happened? stand there for 15 minutes and that's it. c'mon people. realistic a lil?

stayed in hq awaiting the return of my sis. i finished before 10am. i had to stay there for 3 hours laa. oh my gawd. luckily my friends stayed behind too or i'll bored to death. thanks you guys. =)

went back to school for a meeting. boy, i regretted going too. no offense, ok? no conclusions, no decisions made final. is there a point actually? reached home, 4.30pm.

went for my cousin's birthday party. 3 years old and a lot of fuss. why? because he's four ounces heavier than all the other cousins. [try saying it in hakka and you'll understand. i am not being pervert or anything, but this is how it goes in the family. four ounces heavier and you are the king or prince of the house. stupid logic.] used my time to eat and watch tv at his house.

came back at 10pm. one day ==> gone. wasted. ><

hey, you.

hey, you.

dont worry about me so much, alrighty?
i guarantee you, i am fine.
very well indeed.
you need not feel awkward,
you need not hide,
you are my pal and i will help you.
i got your back ok? so just go.
remember i'll be supporting you from behind. =)
all the best to you yo! xD

i think.

i think i just misunderstood something.
i think.
hmm.. curious. quite a curious thing.
i would like to find out the answer behind it.

if i misunderstood, its a very xiasui-ish thing. =X

*shrieks*

*shrieks*!!!

here comes the bloody october. the month which i do not want it to arrive. and yet, it is right in front of me right now.

bloody october.
exams exams exams.

dreadful october.
everyday is gonna be miserable.

i am dreading this october. not prepared to face all the challenges of the exams yet. i hope this month comes just as fast and leaves as fast. i just hope i can go through this october alive. ><

tell me its CUTE!

cute? xD

this is my cousin bro.

turning 3y/o in the month of october.

yao2 yeng3 lea? hahaha. =)