reflection.

i saw something which reflects me.
it reminded me of i looked like.
looked so empty, looked so lifeless.

when i saw that,
the first thing to come to my mind was myself.
i saw myself in that position,
in that look.
that numb look.

i knew,
that was because something fell too deep inside.
to see that scene was a nightmare.
only thing to do was to look away and bear with it.

i saw myself.
i know what was inside.
i know that feeling.
and i felt sorry.

it was like i was gazing into a mirror,
an image showing me.
it was like i was in a time machine,
seeing myself standing in front of me.
seeing that numb look.
seeing that empty look.

it must work out!
it will work out!
i believe it will! =)

i hope to see the shine. =)
i hope to see the color. =)
i hope to see that SMILE. =)
you will do fine. =)

*i hope i am wrong about the paragraphs in white. i WANT to be wrong about it. everything must go right like the paragraph in orangie-yellow. =D *