yea, i am stupid. i know i know. i shouldnt even bother. why do i need to bother? my responsibility? no. i dont even need to care if they lose everything. it wont affect me at all! but why? why do i even want to waste my time on them?
i sacrificed my time to study to TR la, go here la, go there la just to help them but they never really gave their 100% and i dont see any signs of appreciation. at least, not from the guys. both their trainers nearly gave up on them. both of them told me, "dont need to train already lar! i quit!" i feel the same way for the girls.
its so sickening to teach and teach and teach the same thing over and over again. 1 team is trying their best but can never get it right, 2 teams are making me sicker and sicker. 3 teams! in charge of 3 teams! i decided to only put my focus on 1 of them. i am not supergirl! i need to study..
i think i have had the last straw. i dont care, say i am a failure, say i am useless, but i will not be training them anymore. i told them today was the last and they can still play and so many absentees, that's not my problem. i've done my part.
i feel so sinful for not studying yesterday. so so so sinful! well, 1 hour spent on them means less 1 hour of sleep. i'm gonna work towards my goal. i know its late, but i wont give up on my studies no matter how much i want to do so! >:( I'm Gonna Work For It!! >:)
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