a plea.

my only plea to you, is to trust me.
trust me and believe me.
that's all i can say.
that's all i can ask for you to do.

doomed.

i am so so so doomed. got the exam timetable today. the exams on PMR week were ok. not really head aching. but the second week is terrible, horrible, vegetable! OMG!!!!

Chemistry pairs with moral on tuesday, history pairing with add math [dead, so dead.] on wednesday, biology pair with dont know what subject on thursday and friday is physics together with mathematics. SEE!!! so torturing! what a week! i will be kissing my red papers soon. and i'll feel the ear-tiring nag everyday.

wont be attending school tomorrow. decided that it is a waste of time. [not like im spending time wisely at home.] will just be catching up on my sleep i suppose. quite tired these few days.

just right. =)

letting go of that tight, suffocating grip, made me realize that i can laugh my heart out. =D
releasing myself of that nasty knot,made me realize that i've learnt a lot. =)
when i got rid of that lock to myself, i found out i've missed so many things. =(

i should be thankful,
i've learnt so much. =)

i should be grateful,
i found myself. =D

i should look around,
i have a circle of friends out there. =)

i should have known,
everything was just where they're suppose to be. =D

i wont miss out on anything anymore.
i am just right. [not saying that i am perfect, just describing.]
i will be just right.
no hard feelings. =)

coward much?

saw a very silly incident today. hmm.. or more like a very ridiculous thing to do. something only cowards will do.

was walking up to my class in the morning. was talking to a friend. then saw person A [A-who-must-not-be-named. == ] and then stupid part, when person A saw me, person A fled. FLED! lol. is there a need to fled? hello?! coward much? who sees a friend and fleds? sampat. ridiculous. its not like person A did something wrong or committed murder or backstabbed me or anything. i laughed at the thought that somebody would see me and run. never thought that me, TZH would have a day when people would show me their backs when they saw me. i will remember this incident. this silly, pathetic incident.

does it really matter whether i am a friend or a foe? must you run when you see me? really, you are more in-mature than i thought you were. how long do you want to run, how long do you want to hide? it's not like i'll disappear one day. think about it laa. dont you think you are torturing yourself when you hide? dont you think you will make things harder and looks more stupid and awkward? eh, i dont even mind, why do you? sampat.

last day.

last day of the hols.

and i am still in front of the computer. just came back from swimming about an hour ago. school reopens tomorrow. bag not packed, homework not done, brain not prepared. i will be spending my afternoon sleeping because i'm tired from swimming for so long just now. [tommorrow in school you'll see how tan i've become. even a chocolate brownie is fairer. ]

haih. hoping for the best. tried my best to make this hols work but still it is a total failure. maybe when the school announces the actual date of the exam then i will be anxious, 'excited' and may more sleepless night reach me. maybe i'll turn some pages later tonight. hopefully i did turn some pages of course.

public duty-ing.

so i spent my saturday out on a duty at stadium shah alam. it was a buddhist function. [dang! should have said no. went anyways. ] i went on this function with nh. kz, irresponsible you, be punctual laa! ffk. ok, too bored, took some pictures and here it is. =DD

so called first aid room. no chairs for us pun. the bench is for the doctor who has been attending to the cases.

me and nh's corner. so kesian.

nh ar, dont pretend to be studying la. cant go in for sure. xD

hey, stop studying lea.

you havent been turning the page for a long time.

see, i told you you'll stop studying eventually. haha. xD

so bored. ==

nh's signature smile. xDD

our studying and duty-ing "materials" xP

my bookmark is definitely nicer. xP

we stayed in that room the whole day. whereas another 2 members from another school stayed outside the whole day. they must have enjoyed standing up every half and hour for the ceremony. i stood for 1 hour and i've already started to grumble. hehe xD my dad joked and ask when i reached home whether i've attained enlightenment. i said no way. not qualified. why? cuz i'm not bald. ==

my friday.

today is friday. a typical friday. another 2 more days and that's it. the hols is over. exams are coming. more things to crack my head about.

what have i been doing today? hmm.. guess what, i went SHOPPING again. can i quit shopping? oh ya, correction, window shopping. Hello?! knock-knock! shopping is fun, but what's the fun of window shopping? [no offence.] dont have the $$ to buy anything and still window shop? seriously, i hate window shopping. because i can only stare at all those amazing stuff. why cant i be like my aunt? dang it! she can buy anything she likes! and when i say anything, i really meant ANYTHING. from watches to bags to shoes. no matter what's the price, as long as she likes it, she owns it. how good is that? too bad, i dont have the $$. she told me to give my opinion on a bag she adored in clarks. when i saw the bag, i was like "ewww!!" and said "no-sure-ie, not my style. xD " and i looked at the price, i almost dropped the bag in front of the sales girl. [luckily i didnt. i would need to get 10 times 11As in my school exams, get the good achievement award 10 times to pay back for that bag! kwang hua-rians, surely you could guess how much its worth. == ]

O K, back to the topic, i tried to open my books today and i still failed to do so. opened up my chemistry books again. lay them on my table. tried to study. ended up day dreaming and playing with my sis. she has the same problem. open the books and the mind starts swirling. the day dreaming type of swirl.

is there a master degree for wasting time? i think i can get that degree with a hand behind my back. =X i am going for public duty tomorrow, from early morning until 6pm in the evening. so there goes my saturday. as for sunday, i'm going out. swimming in the morning and dont know what family activity in the afternoon. by the time i come back, bye bye sunday, hello monday! haih =(

september is ending. october is coming. can i skip october? please? pretty please with a cherry on top? i'm in living hell going through october. no octobers, please? can i straight go to november? i want to skip the big test. i want to skip hell.

cooperating basis.

my sister and i have come to an agreement to coorperate and help each other in our studies. ==

a very silly thing to do, but too bad, we have no other choice. we have agreed that for each day, we can only turn on the computer for 1 hour max. after 1 hour, the other party will come and switch off the computer. well, may sound childish, but that's the only way to stop my darn addiction to the computer. i hate being addicted to the computer at this kind of critical times.

my hour is almost up. haih. desperate time calls for desperate measures. before my sister comes in to switch off the computer, i better get my ''work'' in the computer done.

my dearest computer, i'll see you again tomorrow. ==

tell me its CUTE!

cute? xD

this is my cousin bro.

turning 3y/o in the month of october.

yao2 yeng3 lea? hahaha. =)

obviously ss-ing ==

see the many many books there? arranged in such orderly manner? xP it is obvious that those books have not been touched for the past few weeks. lol.

tada!! the study table. see how messy? or more like how small?? and think about it, it has to fit a girl with the element of water and a girl with the element of fire. [ignore what fire what water, just a metaphor]

sis's side. my side is definitely not so empty. AND, my side does not have so many creams. lol. look at the area near the glue. ==

now presenting, my side of the table. see what i mean by not so empty? mine is really really messy. but after all the open books and notes are kept, it's still ok la. haha. acceptable. teehee! =D

one subject and so many stuff. this sheet of paper has been on the table for 3 days already and the page is still un-flipped. see how S L O W i am?

and obviously i havent started on this sheet. absolutely nothing. because... if i've studied this piece, it would look like that piece below. =DD

see the difference? one is superb-ly CLEAN and this is filled with colors. dont ask me how, i also dont know what am i doing. just simply high-light some sentences and i'm done. =D

presenting the girl who would rather endulge into narcissism than to study whole day. the girl who will not stay in her seat for more than 5 minutes. the girl who is neglecting her studies to online right now. now read the title again, and you will understand why this post is named obviously ss-ing. =)
suddenly realized that i can actually be so so so ridiculous. =P