what system?

i used an hour or so yesterday, preparing ALL the documents needed to register at Taylor's this saturday. i counted the amount needed to pay and all those forms, sign here sign there, read all the T&C... Everything! i finished EVERYTHING!

this morning, my dad asked me "how many As to do you think you can get for SPM?" "8 or 9. there's also chances of getting 10" then he said "then dont need to register for taylor's la this saturday, you have better offers" o.0!!!!!!!! what was that?! aiyoyo! aiyoyo! OMG OMG OMG! -.=! apalani?

i said sunway, you said no. then when i'm preparing for taylor's you say dont register first? what am i to do now? i need to make sure my future is in tip top condition before i can settle for SPM and this is? aiyoyo! aduei! alamak! and.. did you forget about NS? defer? dont defer? *smacks forehead*

i give up. you decide. and friends, never say i cant make a decision. i encounter decisions rejections too many times. i have decision phobia. thank you berry much!

*frowns!*

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luckily the rest of my life is back to shape =)

more post soon!

when i can upload photos easier xp

was youtube-ing the whole afternoon. xD and i found this video. imagine if i performed this video for graduation! OMG! xD i cant think what will the reaction be! hahaha!

Mr. Beanbastic

movie mania.

childish or not, i feel like watching these shows. xD

too bad its impossible.

sooooo,

望梅止渴吧! x(

* sigh

a puzzle is special in a way that every piece is important.

it will not be perfect if one piece is missing..

and we are like the many pieces.

we refuse to put the pieces together for this puzzle and refuse to even give a chance to be perfect.

we should be working together.

but atlas, it is impossible.

i once thought we were good.

but no, what am i thinking.

we will never be.

and we have a month left..

* sigh *

although i am happy with life, i just feel that we have the chance to live the secondary life we wanted. but its impossible by the looks of this..

TCSJ or SU?

let me give an example, Taylor's (Taylor's College Subang Jaya) is just like Nike. Sunway (Sunway University) is just like Adidas. Nike or Adidas? its just like a brand name and i am actually cracking my head n buying which brand. lol. its just the same, isnt it? both are definitely shoes for running but which one is better? only the heart knows but my heart doesnt x(

both is actually the same. just that taylor's is much more expensive and sunway is much more cheaper. seriously, i do not know the quality of both centers. my mum seems to like sunway more and my dad prefers taylor's. and me, ho ho, pity me, i am in the middle and i dont know where to go.

fine. i have 3 more days to decide. will consider it well. x)

p/s. dont influence me! =D you know who you are xD

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thanks to those who care. =) my med report is perfectly normal =D i'm in the PINK of health! =DDD after all those test! needle here needle there. -.- painful and long morning but at least i know i'm healthy =D

niceeeeee =D

i uploaded the this picture twice and it is still unrotated. aiya, lazy to upload a third time. lol

Thank You!

Jia Wen, Jia Xin, Wen Hui, Chai Woon, Andrea, Woon Ya!

OMG its so nice and meaningful!

especially jia xin's! xD

gan dong-nye!! x))))

i feel that if i left those two pages in my book, somebody would eventually spoil it.

so.. i tore it out and kept it at a very 'safe' place. xD

thank you guys so much! x)

remember to do what you guys promised me! xp

if not, ngek ngek ngek! xD

time flies!

another tuition is gonna end next week.

MJ's intensive chemistry class.

i was from the tuesday night class.

but because the classes ends at 10.30pm, and since my wednesday tuition has been changed, i attended wednesday's class with sc, xy, hk and nh! =)

at witchery ider xD

ran to MJ later because we are so late!

it was a 5 minutes run. lol.

with our bags and everything! so lang bei! xD

but it was definitely something sampat to remember!

especially when you have huey khim making a fool of herself! haha! =P

funny, although i just started to join them for tuition last week, but i feel like i've been with them for a year. 

i'm gonna miss all our lepak sessions before tuition classes.

Add Maths, Chemistry, Physics, Maths, Biology, BM etc.

all those years we walked from school to delta, A1 or alpha.

the afternoon sun is hot like crazy and yet we can laugh, talk and kid around while we're walking to eng ann. amazing and also amusing, isnt it? x)

two months gone.

super fast.

from day 1, the teacher totally dont know my name.

until this week, he asked me my results and said this :

"zhi han, you SHOULD get A+ in your trials" x.X

"why so many careless mistakes?" x.X"

sorry teacher, i am not that perfect.

i cant get such incredible marks. x(

thank you, Mr Alan Ng (not Heng! xD)

my chemistry did improve since the previous exam =)

like what karen, nyee huey, xin ying and sze chin said:

"we're gonna miss all those times.. even though we reached MJ in our sweats!" =DD

errupted.

(i know this post may sound very fake, but that's what i have to say. i dont write this because i want attention, i am not LOA. if anyone thinks its fake, you are free to judge me, this is just what i sincerely feel..)

i am glad. i am glad she said what she felt to us. although its humiliating, although its embarrassing (i know 4s1 heard everything) but at least you did not keep everything inside her anymore.

i am sorry. sincerely sorry. that was my biggest regret. i never regretted something so much. i knew i was wrong. i am sorry for letting my anger control my emotions. i sincerely apologize. (although you will never see this, but still, that's what i have to say..)

i saw your nose turned red, i saw you tears 'shimmering' in your eyes. we were silent, i believe, we all regretted. you were angry, you yelled, you shouted, you scolded. and yet, i think you forgave us.

i saw a poem behind your seat in the staff room. i think (just my guess, if i am wrong, please forgive me) it was written by you although it was placed at another teacher's cupboard. because, (i guess again) it looks like your handwriting. the poem titled "Anyway".

Anyway

People are often unreasonable, 

illogical and self centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, 

people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, 

you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, 

people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, 

someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, 

they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, 

people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, 

and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,

 it is between you and your God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

i.. dont know what to say. i heard that you mistook our motive of presenting you with the birthday cake. i heard the cake was for a bad motive, but in reality, we just wanted to wish you, happy birthday. why? why didnt we present you a cake last year? because we werent facebook addicts then. we knew your birthday via facebook and we made you mad via facebook. we're sorry.

i do not mean to sound fake. this is what i really think. for my BM, you gave me a B+, at least, i still have a B+. i need 4 more marks to get an A-, i know you would give the marks for you gave someone 10+ marks to get an A. but i felt too guilty to ask of anything more from you. i rather keep my B+. i feel like i do not deserve the A- at all.

we are gonna graduate soon. you taught us for two years, and we know you are disappointed in us. never in our minds would we have thought that anything like this would happen just a month before graduation. your memory with s2 must be horrible, i guess? i'm sorry for being a part of your bad memory..

tearful.

tears rolled down many students' cheek these few days. an unacceptable A- or just a mere difference of 0.3 points to an A or A+ is the cause for all this.

*tsk tsk tsk* or should it be *Tips Tips Tips*? the advantage of JPS paper is, everyone knows what's coming out the next day. disadvantage, there is no difference between a bad student and a brilliant student. everyone is equally good. and this, i hate!

i should be SUPER PROUD with my exam results for this term. even though i got B/B+ for BM and BC, but the rest improved A LOT! but when i look at the name list for the marks, i want to go hang myself. OMWTH! i am think i have the bottom few placement in class. this is something i am not contented with.

For Those Who Are Super Brilliant,

for chinese, i know many students did not like what the teacher did to our papers. i know tears came down because of this. as a student would got an increase in my marks, i cant say anything but i understand how you guys feel.

for other subjects, i know it feels weird why you guys studied more than everyone else but got the same grades as those who usually dont study but play in class. personally, i am super PISSED even though i am not too studious!

For Those of You Who Are Average,

you go to the teacher, bug the teacher, force the teacher, beg the teacher, make the teacher pissed and you get your A-. yes, it may sound worth it, but hey, when the teacher said that there's no more marks to add, leave lar! must you cling on to the teacher for your dear A-? we went through this exam with tips, imagine what would we be without tips?

there are some people who thinks that this glorious results are from their own effort, can i slap them? 

"zhi han, what did you get for x paper?" 

" (happily saying) * mark" 

"HAR?!!!!! SO LOW AR?! i got what-what-what marks lor!" 

*i'm thinking, shadup la! i'm supposed to be happy with that mark, now i'm not*

50% of me regretted not paying more attention on the tips. i regretted only flipping through the tips and not focusing much on it. now i got supposing-very-good-marks-but-actually-very-embarrassing marks. =(

but the other 50% of me is at least glad that i finished the whole syllabus and is eager to see how those who only studied the tips struggle to finish their syllabus. and thankfully, i am not the only one thinking like that, there are so many others who would strangle them just to make it fair.

when i got my first clean-from-tips A, i was delighted. nothing can beat my happiness at that moment. 

dont you think its stupid? 

you received the tips, but you want to depend on your own ability to attain the A, on the other hand, all your classmates are studying the tips and you know fairly well that the tips are accurate and if you dont study the tips, you wont be able to fight with those who memorized the tips, studied nothing more than that and can recite the tips backwards at your face. 

studying the tips? sinful. 

not studying the tips? stupid.

*a deep and long sigh* ridiculous. 

stupidity.

i hate myself so much for this exam. i know, i am not blaming myself for not studying enough, but i am blaming myself for not paying more bloody attention to what the topic wants! D: super frustrated with myself.

in this supposed to be very good exam, 2 of my language papers, BM Karangan Pendek takrif salah, BC essay went out of topic! what am i doing?! aduei. because of this, there flew my As! (A- to be exact) hopefully this does not happen to my english paper or i'll really strangle somebody.

BC essay, i asked the teacher how 'out' was i, and he told me :" if you didnt write this *points*, this *points* and THIS *points again* sentence, you would not have gone right out of topic" and i was stunned. simply because, i added those three sentences right before the teacher collected my paper. omg! *faints* tan zhi han, you couldnt have been more stupid.

BM, lagi stupid. usaha-usaha menggalakkan semangat kejiranan became usaha-usaha pelbagai pihak untuk menggalakkan semangat kejiranan. oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh iiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i think Puan Ooi is right. (she advised my class' students to get their eye sight checked before SPM -.-) sc and i were laughing about how ridiculous this was. but now, i (sarcastically) need to go for that stupid checkup. if i werent so stupid, i wouldnt have keluar tajuk for 2 essays. DDDDDDD:

* CHOIIII! x infinity * i MUST NOT get the same for english! * CHOOIIIIII! *

Keeping my fingers CROSSED!!!