errupted.

(i know this post may sound very fake, but that's what i have to say. i dont write this because i want attention, i am not LOA. if anyone thinks its fake, you are free to judge me, this is just what i sincerely feel..)

i am glad. i am glad she said what she felt to us. although its humiliating, although its embarrassing (i know 4s1 heard everything) but at least you did not keep everything inside her anymore.

i am sorry. sincerely sorry. that was my biggest regret. i never regretted something so much. i knew i was wrong. i am sorry for letting my anger control my emotions. i sincerely apologize. (although you will never see this, but still, that's what i have to say..)

i saw your nose turned red, i saw you tears 'shimmering' in your eyes. we were silent, i believe, we all regretted. you were angry, you yelled, you shouted, you scolded. and yet, i think you forgave us.

i saw a poem behind your seat in the staff room. i think (just my guess, if i am wrong, please forgive me) it was written by you although it was placed at another teacher's cupboard. because, (i guess again) it looks like your handwriting. the poem titled "Anyway".

Anyway

People are often unreasonable, 

illogical and self centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, 

people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, 

you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, 

people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, 

someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, 

they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, 

people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, 

and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,

 it is between you and your God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

i.. dont know what to say. i heard that you mistook our motive of presenting you with the birthday cake. i heard the cake was for a bad motive, but in reality, we just wanted to wish you, happy birthday. why? why didnt we present you a cake last year? because we werent facebook addicts then. we knew your birthday via facebook and we made you mad via facebook. we're sorry.

i do not mean to sound fake. this is what i really think. for my BM, you gave me a B+, at least, i still have a B+. i need 4 more marks to get an A-, i know you would give the marks for you gave someone 10+ marks to get an A. but i felt too guilty to ask of anything more from you. i rather keep my B+. i feel like i do not deserve the A- at all.

we are gonna graduate soon. you taught us for two years, and we know you are disappointed in us. never in our minds would we have thought that anything like this would happen just a month before graduation. your memory with s2 must be horrible, i guess? i'm sorry for being a part of your bad memory..