hollow.

i feel so hollow

i remember what you guys said of me yesterday. like a dead body. lol xD looking at myself in the mirror, undeniably, i DO look like a dead body. expression-less face and ah khim's description of a buffalo face. xD i do look horrible dont i?

esther, you made me proud. =) you're good. =] unlike me. lol. the same time, but both of us used totally different methods of handling it. its obvious, i'm the failure, aint i? =p good luck girl. ^^

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flashback starts and i look up at my ceiling. glaring in space and feel the chill on my face. the sensation is weird-ly funny. something beyond words to describe it.

zero to hero or hero to zero? i'll say nothing to hero and from hero vanished into oblivion. and i remember the puddle on my table. something i never thought i'd do. =/

the same hollow feeling as per 8 months ago. the prick. just that it pierced deeper this time.

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6 more days and i'll get my sleep back. =]

i remember this saying:"dont worry, be happy". hopefully sejarah will turn out okay tomorrow. =)

and after SPM, sejarah will really be HISTORY. i cant wait for that day to come. =)