nerve-wrecking.

so many things happened lately until i couldnt pull myself back together.

yea, i suppose i'm turning into a nerve-wreaking lunatic. stupid PPD test is a topping to my matter. cis!

been doing things i never knew i would do. never knew of what i would have become. i never see this coming. supposing i have really turned into a lunatic. all those bits and pieces shattered. haih. but what am i to say?

i didnt do really well in this test and i am very clear why i didnt do well. i know this is the act of of stupidity and at my own cost but i need time to just rebuild my own blocks. and this blow will cost me hell-knows-how-long to put back the pieces together. the previous used 4 months. i am SO SURE this will take more than that. hell more than that.

i feel like a retard. my A+ in maths has gone down the bin. wasted 11marks on careless mistakes. my english, two of the SHORTEST essay i've ever written. sejarah, yea, really sejarah, as in sejarah for my first F.

i've observed and found out that i have been the earliest to drop on my table and sleep for EVERY paper. i really need to reform myself SOON! "i must jia you for midterm! i must do better!" these two sentences left me. i dont know how will i do in the exams. i can try but i see no hope.

just another failure. =/