world war III

i've witnessed world war III earlier this evening. believe me, it was very very scary.

i really pity Party A. i felt so sorry for her. it's not entirely her fault to be in the situation she is in now. she just seemed like she lost everything. i symphatize her.

Party B, its not their fault at all either. they cant do things that are not right. they have their future, they have their families. Party A just cant make them do what they are not willing to do.

i heard yells, shouts and doors slamming all over the house. i saw fingers pointing away, words coming out of their mouths like bullets, non-stop arguing. not a good situation for the 'kids'. ended up babysitting.

a word to you, A,

" i know i know, you worked very hard for that. you saved cent by cent to build up that thing. but time is up. it is time to let go now. let those who are capable, or let those who should claim that 'thing' claim it. dont make yourself so stressed by worrying about it everyday. you talk about this topic all the time. Party B have already gone immune to what you have to say. i know i do not have the right to talk but please la, leave them alone. they have their lifes to live. their family. just leave it, put it down ok? Party B will not take charge directly, but they will find a solution to it. in the mean time, dont go looking for trouble. you are not a kindergardener looking for a fight. you should stay home and rest. i rather you bug me everyday and make me insane than to witness world war IV. help them. help yourself."

** i am aware that both parties will never view this post nor ever in their minds would they have thought that this was what i was thinking when i was babysitting. i am also aware that i am just a 'kid' and i'm not suppose to stuck my head into this kind of 'ugly' situations. this is just a piece of my mind.

hair cut.

i decided that my fringe was too long and very very irritating. so i went for a cut. i went to xxxxx 'hair studio' in kp.

i told the lady i wanted to trim a little at the back and i want to cut the fringe. she said ok. she looks so pro but dont judge a book by its cover. all the way when she was 'fixing' my hair problem, she was yacking away. my gawd!! buei tahan! at first i thought she was quite good because she explained to me very detailed about what she's gonna do with my hair. after 15 minutes, i really felt like leaving. her mouth cant seem to stop moving! kept babbling and babbling on and on. asking me really ridiculous questions and repeating those questions. she asked me if i'm a student twice within 2 minutes.

after she finished, i looked in the mirror and i nearly fainted. what a bird-ish look. so long to my fringe. i look pathetic. =X but look on the bright side, the hair is no longer bothering my eyes. now i have a clearer view. xD

older, wiser?

been dreaming, been thinking.
and guess what i found out.
i found out either i am older mentally or i've turn a lil' wiser. xD
because i realized many things this week.
like everything is making sense right now.
[of course i dont mean making sense in the wrong way.]
i dont see things the childish way i used to see it.
i look at the overall first before judging.
and that's a good thing? hehehe xD
its nice to know i've cracked a head and realize something, better than sitting around doing nothing. =)

p.s. this is just my point of view. not everybody will think this way, but at least i feel that i am this way. =)

finally.

i never thought that i will do this.
it is so unbelievable.
and i am so proud of it. xDD

i...

i...


i've...


i've picked up my books!!


haha. this is really something i never thought i'd do. i thought i'll just sit around wasting my time at home again. who knew i really did my revision. =) although it is not a lot, but at least, i've started. a good start, although it is really late already. xD

hey, dont laugh at me being stupid or wasting my time or wasting money or anything. i just started biology tuition today. == seriously, the teacher was still teaching F4, which is actually a good thing, but the bad thing is that i totally dont understand what is she teaching! all those terminology and phrases. all a blur. means i'll have to study really hard for my biology. haih.

must continue to open up my books and read on. must study! xP

good luck to everybody =)

it's raining =)

it is raining outside.
i like it when it rains. =)
i like to smell the scent of the water,
smashing on the roof of my house.
i would like it even more,
if i can go outside. =)

i want to go into the rain.
i want to stand right there,
feeling the pouring rain on me.
it would feel so nice.
that cool and comfy feeling. =D

i missed the rain.
i missed the sound of the rain,
hitting my window at night.
it would be so nice,
if i could hear that sound tonight. =)

but of course,
my liking for the rain depends on my mood. =P
if it will ruin my plans, or
cause me unable to walk for my classes,
it better stand out of the way. xD

but most of the time,
i still like the sound of the pouring rain. =)

a waste.

my saturday was so so so wasted.

woke up at 6.10am to find out my sis was late for her public duty. [i still cant believe she agreed to go for public duty.] in a very kelam-kabut condition, we managed to get to hq by 6.45am. miracle i tell'ya.

went back home to sleep for an hour. woke up at 8.11am and now its my turn to change into my uniform to go hq. and i regretted going. so so so regret. i am not being offensive. this is just what i feel about it. the adult uniform have so many 'kelengkapan', i have to put it all on, that is not a problem. my hair is getting messier and messier every day and its getting harder to tie it neatly, not a problem too. i have to ask my dad to sacrifice his time to fetch me to hq which is approx 20mins from my house, a small prob here. the dang problem is i have to go through a lot of stuff and what happened? stand there for 15 minutes and that's it. c'mon people. realistic a lil?

stayed in hq awaiting the return of my sis. i finished before 10am. i had to stay there for 3 hours laa. oh my gawd. luckily my friends stayed behind too or i'll bored to death. thanks you guys. =)

went back to school for a meeting. boy, i regretted going too. no offense, ok? no conclusions, no decisions made final. is there a point actually? reached home, 4.30pm.

went for my cousin's birthday party. 3 years old and a lot of fuss. why? because he's four ounces heavier than all the other cousins. [try saying it in hakka and you'll understand. i am not being pervert or anything, but this is how it goes in the family. four ounces heavier and you are the king or prince of the house. stupid logic.] used my time to eat and watch tv at his house.

came back at 10pm. one day ==> gone. wasted. ><

hey, you.

hey, you.

dont worry about me so much, alrighty?
i guarantee you, i am fine.
very well indeed.
you need not feel awkward,
you need not hide,
you are my pal and i will help you.
i got your back ok? so just go.
remember i'll be supporting you from behind. =)
all the best to you yo! xD

i think.

i think i just misunderstood something.
i think.
hmm.. curious. quite a curious thing.
i would like to find out the answer behind it.

if i misunderstood, its a very xiasui-ish thing. =X

skipping class xD

i finally opened my books and started on my torturing journey. haha. eh, very big success lea actually. so hard to see me opening my books without being told to do so. =DD

studied chemistry. finally reached chapter 4. lol. chemistry is my best science sub and yet i dont really know anything about it. sat bai-nye. aduei =X bio is pure am-gong, got an A without studying. ==

after studying for 2 hours, i buei tahan liao, and arrived at the spot i am right now. in front of my beloved computer. xD see how successful i am? too bad i hate electronics or i think i might make it to biotech next time. xDD

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i walked to hg's house at 11+ yesterday night to pass her the 'love letters' i wrote to the 'leng luis' sitting behind me. haha. quite scary actually, walking alone with the fierce dog barking like mad. XP didnt know where i got the courage from. ah well, maybe i'll get some replies tonight if hg decides to pass me my books later. =)

*shrieks*

*shrieks*!!!

here comes the bloody october. the month which i do not want it to arrive. and yet, it is right in front of me right now.

bloody october.
exams exams exams.

dreadful october.
everyday is gonna be miserable.

i am dreading this october. not prepared to face all the challenges of the exams yet. i hope this month comes just as fast and leaves as fast. i just hope i can go through this october alive. ><