disappointed..

i so want to shout out now!
"Oh My Gawd! Waliau eh!"
what do you guys think??!!
we are perfecto?!
we are not brilliant!
we didnt even improve since the last year..
and what did you all do?
play around??!! that's not even a suggestion here!!
come on! we all are below average here!
the other team is improving day by day..
what about us?? we're still left in the dumpster!
and you guys think its FUN?
please, stop all the joking!
i know its gonna be very 'sienz' if we're always serious,
we can joke after we know your mistakes..
please dont joke when we're practising!
where's all the laughing getting us?
NO WHERE I TELL YA!
i dont think its funny at all..
i feel very disappointed..
i feel like im useless..
i feel hopeless!
im really am sorry if i was too strict with you all..
im sorry if i went overboard..
but all i wanted was you guys to listen to me for a sec..
and for you guys to not talk about other topics..
i know you guys wanna catch up after being apart for a week,
but not now, okay??
you guys can do so when we're having a break..
let us at least practise our basics first..
you guys can catch up another day/time..
we have less than half a year..
do you guys remember what happened the last time?
we regret not being serious during the year,
we were only serious when we knew we cant have training again..
do you want to feel the same next February?
regret that we are not ready at all?
not to mention our opponents are strong teams!
please, dont do that during the next training..
I BEG YOU GUYS!!!