all over again~

haiz. i thought everything's over.
i thought im free.
i thought i dont need to worry about all this anymore.
i thought i can concentrate on my studies already.
but i was wrong.
its not over.
i still have to go through all this all over again.
i still remember,
i swore not to let myself go through all this trouble,
i swore im never going to be part of this again.
and yet, what am i doing now?
i think its suicide.
i know this is the chance of a lifetime.
i might not have a second go.
but can i let go?
can i quit?
im tired, i want to rest.
why take the trouble when i can have peace?
i dont know.
i want to talk.
but who will borrow me their ears?
who is willing to hear what i've got to say?