awkward ~

how can one not give up?
im receiving pressure from my parents.
the sweet talk last time we always had when they are not satisfied with my academic process does not work anymore.
i too, gave up on myself.
it seems that im wrong in whatever way.
so, what's the point of contributing so much?
i can chill and relax.
keep my mind off things.
it would be the best way.
i feel that im just making a fool of myself.
again, i ask myself, why put so much effort when i am not appreciated?
im just a stupid girl who thinks im ok.
i was so so so wrong.
come on, give up.
its totally useless not to give up.