suddenly i realize ~

suddenly, i realize, that i need not be so good.
suddenly, i realize, i need not sacrifice so much.
suddenly, i realize, no matter how much i do, its is nothing.
suddenly, i realize, when i help, it seems like trouble to you guys.
suddenly, i realize, i am nothing.

nothing.

i need not make my commitment.
i need not be so 'pia'.
i need not to bother.
i can relax, chill and let go.
no point for me to stay, am i right?
nothing i say matter.
my existence is invisible.
compared to somebody who makes stupid and ridiculous tantrums, i am nothing.
you guys listen to her for the fear that she will be pissed if she was disobeyed.
but what about me?
do i matter?
i have feelings too!
i dont have such a stupid character like her,
so i dont need so much attention?

answer is, YES.
i am just nothing.
as i suddenly realize.
it is time for me to let go.
once i've finished my duties at the moment.
i am leaving.