never thought about it ~

i've never thought about this before.
i never thought it would be like this as well.
i thought it was supposed to be the exact opposite.
i dont know.
i dont think i can make a conclusion.
i am not sure about what i am thinking.
is this what i really wanted?
is this going to make me happy?
satisfied? regret? cant let go?
i dont know.
i dont know!
why must things be so complicated?
is this called life?
why cant things be more simpler.
then i wont have so many strands of white hair.