tomorrow.

tomorrow will be KH's SJAM's 11th anniversary.
everything is almost done.
we are just bits from being great.
i hope everything can go smoothly tomorrow.
i hope it will go well.
so our efforts will not be wasted. =D

good luck and gambatea! =DD

2 more days.

another 2 more days and everything will be over.

all our efforts. hopefully it will be worth it.

i would say good luck.

i darent say it will be great.

add oil and all the best to all those who participated//put in effort for this celebration.

work for another 2 more days.

it will be fine?

now i understand.

now i really do understand. i understand why last time, seniors always scold us saying that we are childish. we dont like it at all. we thought we really know what we are doing. but until now only did i realise that we really were childish. our thoughts were just 'dreams'. not reality.

always playing, always dreaming, always causing troubles, always complaining. never was there any peace. i really do feel so sorry and a word of thank you for those seniors who guided us so far. for those who've given us support in no matter what we do. for forgiving us for our mistakes. for making us realise our mistakes. it really isnt easy to be a senior.

now i realise. it is not easy to always have to think for them. it is not easy to help all of them. some accept our advice without another word, whereas some will curse you behind your back.

now i understand why we were amatures last time. because all our actions were not logical. we do everything the way we want it, the way we like it. we never thought of it whole way round like seniors did. ( does this really proves that we get wiser as we grow older? )

to think back of it, i really was childish in the pass. playing and laughing my head off everyday. going through senior's lecture everyday. being exposed to the inside details since F1 really made me grow (a bit). having a go at losing everything made me grow even more. and i am glad. to know what people really is like. and i will say, people are so darn horrifying. like friends, one day you are in, and another, you are out ( slogan for project runway XD but it really suits here ) i hated that but who cares. now i know who are my true friends.

dont get me wrong, i am not saying i am wise. just that i feel i could think better nowadays. a clearer vision. maybe growing up have its advantages?

no spirit.

i do not feel right these few days.
feel so angry, so moody, so stupid.
but the problem is,
i dont know why i feel like this.
sorry to those whom i've hurt their feelings.
sorry.

i dont feel like doing anything anymore.
feel like taking a long rest.
want to take a long holiday.
away from everything..

sudden worry.

suddenly something woke me up from my day dream.
and i realize that we have only 2 weeks left!!!
i dont know what to say or how to say it.
a way to minimize the misunderstandings.
but i just hope everything goes well.
i will do my part, i will try my best.
hopefully our dream will come true. =)

GAMBATEA! =D
WE CAN DO IT!! =DDDD

a happy day =)

i went out with my 'jimui's today. (although i might say, not all of them were there =( ) went on a shopping spree! =DD nolar, actually we went to buy the costume for our performance. Man it was hard!

when we found a blouse we liked, it didnt have enough stock for all 7 of us. the ones with enough stock are the ones we dont like ==

we entered each shop at least twice or thrice! and we still ended up with nothing. so in the end, we decided to split forces. yjing and me went in a group while hkhim, nhuey and hgee went in another.

yjing and me tried about 6 to 7 shorts in a particular shop. the basket was filled with our shorts. those shorts, if they arent too long then they are too tight, or they are suitable or they dont fit at all. i really pity the sales girl. sorry though! she kept helping us take new shorts and everything. but in the end, we only bought 1. xD

went back to the shop where we found quite-nice-blouses. me and yjing took black while my sis and my cousin took the whites. (they werent there, so i made the decision xD ) we kinda look identical. i mean yjing and me. just that... well... for hkhim, shanci, huigee, zhiyin and maybe a few more people, you guys know what i mean. wakaka! =DD just joking. so in the end, me and yjing finally managed to find suitable clothes for 4. =)

the other troop bought theirs just next door. lol. theirs was a bit weird looking to me at first sight. but after a while, it was ok lar. still presentable. (just that i am not the kind of girl who would wear that kind of blouse, if you call that a blouse. no offence guys. =( ) so we did find clothes for all of us =D and we used.. hmmm.. 6 hours. not bad! xDD from 10am till 4pm.

went to jj next. walked around and waited for time to pass. tried a few garments, ate ice cream, hung around.. but mainly, we just sat there. we all looked pretty tired. couldnt walk any longer. nhuey and hkhim went home before we entered the cinemas. yj, hg and me wondered if we would sleep while watching harry potter. the show wasnt as interesting as the book. i would recommend the book better. hehe =)

i just reached home an hour ago. haha. i really enjoyed this day. its really hard for us to come out and have fun like this again. i was wondering when's the next outing? will all of us be there? or a few people will still be missing? i really hope everybody's there. remember to jio me the next round yo! haha. i think i should get in early. gotta wake up early tomorrow for siemen run. * yawns * and that's the end of my wonderful day. =)

2 circles.

2 circles. 7 in total.
3 neglected.
4 cannot be separated.
divided into 2 circles.
3 cannot communicate with the others at all.
well, maybe the one is the same clothes can.
what about the other 2?
ever thought about them?
ever crossed your mind??

i may say that i also neglect the other.
i know, i am sorry, but i do not know why myself.
i just feel really weird.
i know i always say that the other complaints too much about being neglected.
i know i dont have the right to say anything.
but it is not like i didnt try to tune to the same melody.
i tried to talk to you guys.
but i guess you guys didnt even bother, right?
all you guys have in mind is a bird, a lorry, a fan and a carrot.
what about the others? invisible?

4 are singing the same melody,
while the other 3 are singing their own melody.
is that the real meaning of this game?
for you 4 to be better friends?
and for the others to fall behind?
then i dont think this is a good game.

not 1, is 3.
think about it.
2 different circles.

100 truths?

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: tinge. xD
2. Last phone call: SQ
3. Last text message: xinyi
4. Last song you listened to: Right Here Right Now
5. Last time you cried: That night

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: i think so
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: not really?
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: Never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. sky blue
13. purple
14. green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Yes
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes. and i hate the truth!
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: > 90%
23. How many kids do you want to have: no idea
24. Do you have any pets: Yes
25. Do you want to change your name: No
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Celebrated with friends
27. What time did you wake up today: 5.45am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with my sis
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: i dont know.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: This morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing
32. What are you listening to right now: Nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing really
35. Most visited webpage: Blogger
36. Whats your real name: Tan Zhi Han
37. Nicknames: -
38. Relationship Status: Single.
39. Zodiac sign: Aquarius.
40. Male or female : Female
41. Elementary?: Pin Hwa (2)
42. Middle School?: Kwang Hua
43. High school/college?: Dont know
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: Just right
46. Height: 161cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Hope not.
48: What do you like about yourself?: No idea
49. Piercings: No
50. Tattoos: No
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never
53. First piercing: Never
54. First best friend: EeYing
55. First sport you joined: Cycling
56. First vacation: Penang
58. First pair of trainers: Nike

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating: Hungry
60. Drinking: Thirsty
61. I'm about to: Blog
62. Listening to: Nothing
63. Waiting on: My turn to hit the showers.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? : dont know.
65. Get Married? : guess so.
66. Career? : steady and successful.

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous : i choose both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : Arms
73. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant : None

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: Never
77. Drank hard liquor: Never
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
79. Sex on first date: Never
80. Broken someone's heart: Dont think so
82. Been arrested : No
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: Yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself : Yes
87. Miracles : Yes
88. Love at first sight : Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: not really
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : Never
95. Did you sing today? : Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? : No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : 2 years
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? : 19 April
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : No
100. Posting this as 100 truths? : the truth and nothing but the truth. XP

the end of UB.

finally finished the third and last UB of the year.
and also,
finally one picture is done! =D
so happy!
another one and a half to go! haha
thank you, jia xin and chai woon for helping us so much! =D

hmm.. feel a bit down today.
dont know why.
feel so idiotic really.
hopefully i am not becoming that kind of emo people.
i hate to let my emotions control me.
but yet, i am always controlled by it.
how can i get rid of this bad habit?
almost slept in class again today.
another bad habit. need to change! lol.

never-ending-busy-ness.

been out of class again today.
for around 3 periods.
'berusaha tangga kejayaan'
mine is 'ketinggalan tangga kejayaan'.

the only good news is i got a 100% in my P.Moral.
haha. but the bad thing was that almost everybody got 100%. ==
i got 58% for Add Math.
the highest mark for Add Math so far.
got physics and history tomorrow.
i can only choose one.
so i pick sejarah.
'cuz my teacher will be so angry if we dont get A.
feel so sorry to my physics teacher for having to mark my F paper.

>.<