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i dont know, i dont know, i dont know, i dont know. . .
why me? why me? i feel like i have the word 'failure' printed on my forehead! i feel like im a mess. a very very big mess. no matter what i do, i will make matters worse, i can make something worth a fortune to become a white elephant! what does that mean? im a failure! a total failure.

some things, i totally dont mind. IM REALLY SORRY.. i didnt know that you guys mind. i had no idea you guys thought of it that way. so, there, another thing to prove im stupid. sheesh! i really need a long rest. it is not because i've been participating in many things, it is because i need to do my 'corrections' before i treat others the wrong way again. i wanted to change my character, my attitude and everything, so no matter how sarcastic or how horrible the comment is, i can accept it with an open heart. i dont mind the comment is given by a senior, a friend or a junior. truthfully, i've never criticized anybody who gave me a nasty comment. since people think of me that way, i'll change myself to suit their way. [ what i wrote is about myself, not about my friends. i dont mean that you guys cant accept any comments.]

i thought we were all fine, until today, i know that you guys dont like most of the ways. to come think of it, it is not your fault, i dont know how to change my tone when i give you guys comments. okay, you all know your own mistakes, so i wont say another word. i'll just let it go. i dont want to hurt anybody's feelings. i hate to talk because i am always misunderstood by my tone. im sorry, i really am. . .