i am quite confused right now. i feel weird. just like last year. i made a decision, and when i almost finished it, i took back my words. i so regret taking back what i said. although i do admit that i have a not-very-bad memory, plus with the 'help' of my friends, i've learnt quite a lot. now i think im about to make the same decision again. but this time, i hope i can really accomplish what i plan to do. sounds weird huh?
i've figured it out, that is not my type. i do not need that. i want something better, although i may not deserve it. i know its wrong, but i still cant let go. that is called stupidity. but before that, i want to take back something. i gave that thing up around a year plus ago, i broke it a few times in this period, i want to save it before i break it another time. the problem is, will i be stuck again? will i stop half way again? am i prepared for what i will face after that? i dont know. . .
i never wanted it to be like this. but what's the point? is it wasting my time? why must i make it so complicated when i can make it simply? why must i frown when i can smile? i am really stupid + stubborn, arent i? when i see others happy, you can feel the envy in my eyes. why cant i be like them?
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