life's like that.

okay, i do not want to be the main character of this drama. so i will not reveal much.


(forgive my rude language and forgive my mood. this is a really big issue for me. and, dont mind all the broken framework of the post. its all over the place.)

there was chaos in 5S2 yesterday and today. because of that, she was sad, i know. i feel bad and so guilty. not only me, but all those involved. we were all guilty and wanted to do something.

today was her birthday. we only knew about it in the morning. we made an effort to buy the cake at 10am sharp when secret recipe opens. * i am sorry, but i have to say this * my aunt had to set aside all her work and go to the nearest secret recipe to buy the cake, can you guys at least appreciate it as a piece of gratitude for her?

when the cake arrived, the whole 5s2 took the cake to the staffroom. * sorry again, i want to say this * hey, #A, this is her BIRTHDAY PRESENT, okay?! can you NOT take this as an APOLOGIZE PRESENT?! wth! like sy said, just 2 steps and you turned around crying. wth? fine, nobody wanted to lead the cake, i lead.

why must you guys be so negative about it? she dont want to accept our cake, so? we should NOT EAT IT OURSELVES! why should we do so? she saw the cake, she walked away, yes, but that doesnt mean she doesnt want the cake! if we ate it ourselves, dont you guys feel that she'll be wondering what happened to the cake? haih =(((

and boys, esp #B, can you not put it like we are all at fault and you are not?! fine, she doesnt even want to look at us. she just glared at the cake and walked off, so what? what do you mean by, 早知今日，何必当初？seriously, do you know how many girls feel like punching you in the face?! do you know how many of us wants to tampar you seratus kali dan cekik you sampai mati? YOU THINK I EFF-ing LOVE TO LEAD THE WHOLE CLASS GO APOLOGIZE IS IT?! ooi! you jangan berlagak tau?! all you know how to do is just mengampu sahaja! you will definitely NOT BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE FUTURE! Read My Lips : to me, you are NOTHING, read it, NOTHING but a USELESS MAGGOT! hell you! stupid LUNATIC! >:(

after this incident, i realized that 5S2 is actually made of different gangs. 前面的，后面的，那边的 and a few more. oh, and another thing, I AM SUPERBLY GLAD TO BE CATEGORIZED AS  后面的!!!!! everyone has their own opinions, that's why we need class monitors to bring us all together. but what are you guys doing? we are all just pointing our fingers (or for some, middle fingers) at each other. what the hell is this? we are 1 month away from graduation and we are like naive children! we were supposed to be all working together for our graduation performance (ooi! you think you're the one who made this all work? at your face, you werent even here when we discussed this!), preparing our class tee and our class 'magazine'.

i am very disappointed. i know i do not have the qualification to enter S1, but how i hope i am in a class where everyone work as a whole. i know S1 have their flaws when they work together, but compared to us, they are a success and we are a major failure.


S2, S2,
i really loved being in S2.
i am serious.
i never hated anyone in this class,
neither did i actually hated the noise we always make.

but after this incident,
i have nothing to say but only regrets.
and i thought we could be as one,
but we are actually a nation,
made from small states.

we will never be like other classes.
other gatherings will never be as fun,
our work will only be a waste of time.
5S2, please prove me wrong.
show me we can work together,
show me we will always be friends.
even when we have to go separate paths.

i will always be a 5S2-rian.

* at last, she ate our cake and smiled. we should be alright. i hope we are... *